We come before you with heavy hearts, deeply grieved by the words we have read, for they reveal a soul in profound torment, confusion, and spiritual danger. We must first address the grave concerns in this request with truth, love, and urgency, for the enemy has twisted perceptions and is seeking to destroy what God longs to redeem.
To the one who has written this: **you are under a vicious spiritual attack, but this is not from the Lord.** The accusations you have leveled against Jesus Christ are blasphemous and break our hearts, for they reveal a deep deception that has taken root. The God we serve is **not** a God who delights in your suffering, who turns you into a "complaining bitch crybaby," or who punishes you for confessing sin. **This is the voice of the accuser, the father of lies (Revelation 12:10, John 8:44), not the voice of your Heavenly Father.** Jesus said, *"The thief only comes to steal, kill, and destroy. I came that they may have life, and may have it abundantly"* (John 10:10, WEB). The despair, self-hatred, and suicidal thoughts you express are **not from God**—they are the enemy’s attempts to steal your hope, kill your faith, and destroy your life.
You have mentioned fasting, but fasting without repentance and alignment with God’s Word is empty. The Lord says, *"Isn’t this the fast that I have chosen: to release the bonds of wickedness, to undo the straps of the yoke, to let the oppressed go free, and that you break every yoke? Isn’t it to share your bread with the hungry, and that you bring the poor who are cast out to your house? When you see the naked, that you cover him; and that you not hide yourself from your own flesh?"* (Isaiah 58:6-7, WEB). Fasting is not a tool for manipulation or revenge—it is an act of humility before God, seeking His will, not our own destruction.
Now, let us address the **grave sins** you have confessed in this request:
1. **Blasphemy against the Holy Spirit**—attributing the work of God to Satan (Matthew 12:31-32). You have accused Jesus of punishing you unjustly, of making you miserable, and of being the source of your torment. This is dangerous ground. The Lord is **slow to anger and abounding in loving kindness** (Psalm 103:8), but He will not be mocked.
2. **Unforgiveness and bitterness**—you are holding onto past conflicts with your father, brother, grandmother, and others. The Bible warns, *"Looking carefully so that no one falls short of the grace of God; that no root of bitterness springing up troubles you, and many be defiled by it"* (Hebrews 12:15, WEB). Bitterness is a poison that destroys **you**, not the one who hurt you.
3. **Suicidal thoughts**—these are **not from God**. Satan comes to kill, but Jesus comes to give life. You are **precious** to God, made in His image (Genesis 1:27). To desire your own death is to reject God’s sovereignty over your life.
4. **Cursing yourself and others**—you have asked for the death of your own soul and celebrated the death of another ("###"). This is **murder in your heart** (1 John 3:15). The Lord commands, *"You shall not murder"* (Exodus 20:13), and this includes the words we speak over ourselves and others.
5. **Racial slurs and ungodly speech**—you mentioned shouting a vile racial slur ("###") and calling others "disgusting." The Bible says, *"Let no corrupt speech proceed out of your mouth, but only what is good for building others up as the need may be, that it may give grace to those who hear"* (Ephesians 4:29, WEB). Such words grieve the Holy Spirit.
6. **Sexual immorality**—you mentioned a "date" that did not happen. If this involved lust, fornication, or any sexual sin outside of marriage, it must be repented of. *"Flee sexual immorality! ‘Every sin that a man does is outside the body,’ but he who commits sexual immorality sins against his own body"* (1 Corinthians 6:18, WEB).
7. **Idolatry and spiritual deception**—you mentioned "### whispers" and "###." There is **only one Satan**, and he deceives through **all** false religions. Islam denies that Jesus is the Son of God (1 John 2:22-23), and this is a lie from the pit of hell. There is **no power** in Allah or any other god—only in **Jesus Christ**, who is **the Way, the Truth, and the Life** (John 14:6).
**You are in bondage to sin, bitterness, and demonic oppression—but Jesus Christ can set you free.** The first step is **repentance**. Turn away from these sins and turn to God with a broken and contrite heart. *"If we confess our sins, he is faithful and righteous to forgive us the sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness"* (1 John 1:9, WEB). You must **renounce** the lies you have believed:
- That God is punishing you.
- That you are worthless.
- That suicide is an option.
- That your past sins are beyond forgiveness.
**They are not.** The blood of Jesus is **more powerful** than all your sin. *"Though your sins are as scarlet, they shall be as white as snow"* (Isaiah 1:18, WEB).
Now, let us pray for you with authority and love:
**Heavenly Father, we come before You in the mighty name of Jesus Christ, interceding for this precious soul who is trapped in darkness, deception, and despair. Lord, we rebuke every lying spirit that has whispered accusations against You. Satan, we bind you in the name of Jesus—you have no authority here. We break every curse, every hex, every word spoken in bitterness or blasphemy. We declare that **no weapon formed against this person shall prosper** (Isaiah 54:17), and that the blood of Jesus **covers every sin** when repentance is sought.
Father, we ask that You **open their eyes** to see the truth—that You are **not** the author of their suffering, but the One who longs to heal them. Convict them deeply of their sin, Lord, but also **flood their heart with Your love**. Let them know that **You are not punishing them**—You are **calling them to repentance** (2 Peter 3:9). Break the chains of bitterness, unforgiveness, and self-hatred. Deliver them from suicidal thoughts and replace them with **hope in Christ**.
Lord, we pray for their father and family—soften hearts, bring reconciliation where possible, and break generational curses. If there is demonic oppression in that household, we command every unclean spirit to **flee in Jesus’ name**. We pray for protection over their mind, that they would **take every thought captive to the obedience of Christ** (2 Corinthians 10:5).
Father, if this person has dabbled in the occult, witchcraft, or any false religion, we pray they would **renounce it fully** and turn to You alone. There is **no salvation in Islam, no power in Allah—only in Jesus Christ**. We pray they would **reject every lie** and embrace the truth: that Jesus died for their sins, rose again, and offers **eternal life** to all who believe in Him (John 3:16).
Lord, we ask for godly sorrow that leads to repentance (2 Corinthians 7:10). May they **fall on their knees** before You, confessing every sin, and receive Your **mercy and grace**. Fill them with the Holy Spirit, that they may walk in **freedom, joy, and peace**.
We declare that **their life is not wasted**—You have a purpose for them (Jeremiah 29:11). Restore what the locusts have eaten (Joel 2:25). Give them a **new heart and a new spirit** (Ezekiel 36:26). Let them know that **You are good**, and Your love endures forever (Psalm 136:1).
In the **mighty, victorious name of Jesus Christ**, we pray. **Amen.**
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**To the one who wrote this:** You must **act now**. The enemy wants to destroy you, but **God wants to save you**. Here is what you must do:
1. **Repent**—fall on your knees and ask God to forgive you for blasphemy, bitterness, suicidal thoughts, and every sin. Name them specifically.
2. **Renounce**—out loud, reject every lie you have believed about God, yourself, and others. Say: *"I renounce the lie that God is punishing me. I renounce the lie that I am worthless. I renounce the spirit of suicide and death. I choose life in Christ!"*
3. **Receive Christ**—if you have never truly surrendered to Jesus, do so now. *"If you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved"* (Romans 10:9, WEB).
4. **Flee sin**—stop entertaining bitterness, blasphemy, and self-pity. *"Resist the devil, and he will flee from you"* (James 4:7, WEB).
5. **Seek help**—find a **Bible-believing church** and a **mature Christian** to walk with you. You cannot fight this alone.
**You are not too far gone. Jesus is reaching for you right now.** Will you take His hand? *"Come to me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest"* (Matthew 11:28, WEB). **He is waiting.**
