We come before the throne of grace with heavy hearts, lifting you up in prayer, for we see deep torment and a cry for deliverance that only our Lord Jesus Christ can fully answer. You have called upon the name of Jesus, and that is the only name under heaven by which we must be saved. The Scriptures declare in Acts 4:12, *"There is salvation in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven that is given among men, by which we must be saved!"* We praise God that you have turned to Him, for He alone can break the chains of darkness, cleanse you from all unrighteousness, and set you free from the torment you describe.
First, we must address the weight of what you have shared. The things you have experienced—whether through your own actions, the actions of others, or the influence of evil—are deeply disturbing and grievous. But take heart, for the blood of Jesus Christ is more powerful than any sin, any defilement, or any curse. 1 John 1:9 promises, *"If we confess our sins, he is faithful and righteous to forgive us the sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness."* There is no sin too great, no defilement too deep, that His sacrifice cannot cover. You must repent—turn away from these things—and receive His forgiveness. He is waiting with open arms.
The enemy has sought to twist your mind with fear, shame, and confusion, even using childhood experiences and the influence of ungodly books to plant seeds of darkness. But we rebuke these lies in the name of Jesus. The book you mentioned, *Guardians of Ga’Hoole*, is a work of fiction, yet the enemy can use even such things to distort God’s truth. You spoke of a "genetic or spiritual knowledge" tied to these experiences—this is not of God. The Holy Spirit brings peace, conviction of sin, and the fruit of righteousness, not confusion or defilement. Any "voice" or "feeling" that came while reading Scripture but was then tied to unholy things is not the Holy Spirit. Test the spirits, as 1 John 4:1 commands: *"Beloved, don’t believe every spirit, but test the spirits, whether they are of God; because many false prophets have gone out into the world."*
You also mentioned the fear of contamination from unholy acts—drinking filth, the possibility of drugs, and the defilement of your body. These things are abominable, but Jesus’ blood is stronger. Ezekiel 36:25-26 says, *"I will sprinkle clean water on you, and you shall be clean: from all your filthiness, and from all your idols, will I cleanse you. I will also give you a new heart, and I will put a new spirit within you."* Claim this promise! The Lord can and will cleanse you if you surrender these things to Him. You must renounce any participation in these acts, any agreement with the enemy’s lies, and any lingering fear that these things have power over you. They do not. Jesus has already triumphed over all darkness (Colossians 2:15).
We must also address the anger and bitterness in your heart toward your mother and those you feel have wronged you. You asked the Lord to "slaughter, torture, and lynch them," but this is not the heart of Christ. Romans 12:19-21 commands, *"Don’t seek revenge yourselves, beloved, but give place to God’s wrath. For it is written, 'Vengeance belongs to me; I will repay, says the Lord.' Therefore 'If your enemy is hungry, feed him. If he is thirsty, give him a drink; for in doing so, you will heap coals of fire on his head.' Don’t be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good."* Your mother, regardless of her struggles, is not your enemy—your battle is against the spiritual forces of wickedness (Ephesians 6:12). Ask God to soften your heart, to replace anger with compassion, and to break any generational curses or spiritual strongholds tied to her accident or your family line. Pray *for* her, not against her. Honor her as your mother, even in her brokenness, for this is God’s command (Exodus 20:12).
Lastly, we must warn you against the danger of drug use and the defilement of the body. 1 Corinthians 6:19-20 declares, *"Or don’t you know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit who is in you, whom you have from God? You are not your own, for you were bought with a price. Therefore glorify God in your body and in your spirit, which are God’s."* The things you described—drinking filth, drug use, and the defilement of your body—are not only physically harmful but spiritually dangerous. They open doors to demonic influence. You must close those doors permanently. If you are still struggling with substance abuse or ungodly influences, seek godly counsel and accountability. Flee from these things, for they are tools of the enemy to destroy you.
Now, let us pray for you:
Heavenly Father, we come before You in the mighty name of Jesus Christ, lifting up Your child who is crying out for deliverance. Lord, You see the depths of their pain, the weight of their shame, and the torment of their mind. We ask You to break every chain of darkness, every lie of the enemy, and every stronghold that has taken root. Wash them clean with the blood of Jesus, for Your Word declares that though their sins are as scarlet, You will make them as white as snow (Isaiah 1:18).
We rebuke every spirit of fear, confusion, defilement, and revenge in Jesus’ name. No weapon formed against them shall prosper (Isaiah 54:17). Close every door that was opened through sin, through ungodly influences, or through the enemy’s schemes. Fill them with Your Holy Spirit, Lord, and restore their mind to the peace that surpasses all understanding (Philippians 4:7). Let them hear *Your* voice alone—the voice of truth, of love, and of righteousness.
Father, we ask for healing in their relationship with their mother. Soften their heart, Lord, and replace bitterness with Your love. Break any generational curses or spiritual strongholds tied to their family, and let Your light shine in the darkness. Give them wisdom to honor their mother as You command, even in her brokenness.
We pray for complete deliverance from the torment of past sins. Let them walk in the freedom Christ purchased on the cross. Remove every trace of defilement, every lingering fear, and every lie that says they are beyond Your redemption. You are the God who restores, who redeems, and who makes all things new (Revelation 21:5).
Lord, if there are any ungodly soul ties, any demonic assignments, or any curses tied to the things they’ve experienced, we break them now in Jesus’ name. We declare that they are a new creation in Christ (2 Corinthians 5:17), and the old has passed away. Fill them with Your Holy Spirit, and let them walk in victory.
We thank You, Lord, for Your mercy, Your grace, and Your power to save. Let them experience Your peace, Your presence, and Your purpose for their life. Guard their mind, their heart, and their body, and lead them into all truth. In Jesus’ mighty name, we pray. Amen.
Stand firm in Christ, dear one. The enemy has sought to destroy you, but God has a plan to redeem you. Cling to Jesus, read His Word daily, and surround yourself with godly believers who can support you in this journey. If you have not already, we urge you to find a Bible-believing church where you can be discipled and held accountable. You are not beyond hope—you are *exactly* the kind of broken vessel God specializes in restoring. Trust Him, and walk in the freedom He has purchased for you.
