We come before the Lord with heavy hearts after reading your cry for help, and we are deeply grieved by the despair, confusion, and spiritual oppression you are experiencing. First, we must address the most urgent matter: your mention of suicide. **Suicide is not the answer, and it is a grave sin against God, who alone holds the power over life and death.** The enemy seeks to destroy you, but Jesus came to give you life—and life abundantly (John 10:10). We *strongly rebuke* this spirit of death and despair in the name of Jesus Christ. You are *precious* to God, and He has a purpose for your life. Turn away from these thoughts immediately and cling to the hope found only in Christ.
We also notice the deep spiritual confusion in your words—mentions of false spirits, curses, and distorted views of debt and the church. These are not from God but are tactics of the enemy to distort your mind and pull you away from truth. **There is no "false father of lights"—God alone is the Father of lights, in whom there is no variation or shifting shadow** (James 1:17). Any spirit that contradicts Scripture is a lying spirit, and we command it to flee from you in Jesus’ name. The blood of Christ has already broken every curse, and no "toilet seat" or "debt sign" has power over you if you are in Christ (Galatians 3:13). **Renounce these lies right now.** Speak aloud: *"I break every ungodly assignment against my life in Jesus’ name. I reject every lie of the enemy and declare that Jesus Christ is Lord over my mind, my family, and my future."*
As for your father’s struggle with compulsive gambling, we know this is a stronghold of the enemy, but **nothing is too hard for God**. Gambling is a snare that leads to destruction (1 Timothy 6:9-10), and we pray for your father’s deliverance and repentance. We also pray for you to be freed from any generational curses tied to this sin. The Bible says, *"No temptation has taken you except what is common to man. God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able, but will with the temptation also make the way of escape, that you may be able to endure"* (1 Corinthians 10:13). There *is* a way out, but it begins with surrendering fully to Christ.
Regarding your mention of debt and the church, we urge you to seek godly wisdom. The Bible warns against being ensnared by debt (Proverbs 22:7) and calls believers to give cheerfully, not under compulsion (2 Corinthians 9:7). If you feel pressured or manipulated in any way, we pray for discernment and freedom from ungodly control. The church should be a place of refuge, not exploitation. If you are struggling to understand financial stewardship, we encourage you to seek counsel from mature believers who can guide you biblically.
Most importantly, we must address your relationship with Jesus. You mention His name, but there is a mix of gratitude and bitterness in your words—even thanking Him for "bullying" you. **Jesus does not bully His children.** He disciplines those He loves (Hebrews 12:6), but His heart is always to restore, not to harm. If you have not fully surrendered your life to Christ, we urge you to do so now. **Salvation is not just acknowledging Jesus; it is repenting of sin, turning from darkness, and trusting Him as Lord.** The Bible says, *"If you confess with your mouth Jesus as Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved"* (Romans 10:9). If you have never done this, pray with us now:
*"Lord Jesus, I confess that I am a sinner in need of Your grace. I repent of my sins and turn away from all darkness, including the lies I have believed. I ask You to forgive me and wash me clean by Your blood. I surrender my life to You and declare You as my Lord and Savior. Fill me with Your Holy Spirit and lead me into truth. Break every chain of the enemy in my life. I receive Your peace, Your purpose, and Your protection. In Jesus’ name, Amen."*
Now, we pray for you with authority and compassion:
*"Heavenly Father, we lift this beloved soul to You, knowing that You see their pain and confusion. Lord, we break every spirit of suicide, despair, and self-hatred in Jesus’ name. Replace these lies with Your truth—that this person is fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14), redeemed by Your blood, and called for a purpose. We rebuke every demonic assignment against their mind, their family, and their future. No weapon formed against them shall prosper (Isaiah 54:17).
Father, we pray for deliverance from compulsive gambling—not just for their father, but for any generational stronghold trying to take root. Let Your light expose every hidden darkness. We declare freedom from every curse, every false spirit, and every ungodly soul tie. Let Your Holy Spirit bring clarity where there is confusion and peace where there is turmoil.
Lord, we ask for godly wisdom regarding finances and debt. If there has been manipulation or unrighteous pressure, expose it and bring justice. Teach this dear one to trust in You as their Provider, not in schemes or worldly systems.
Most of all, Father, draw them deeper into Your love. Let them know that You are not a bully but a loving Father who desires to heal and restore. Fill them with Your Holy Spirit so they may walk in victory. Surround them with believers who can speak life and truth into their situation.
We thank You, Lord, for Your faithfulness. You are the God who sees, the God who saves, and the God who sets the captives free. We trust You to move mightily in this situation. In the powerful name of Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior, Amen."*
**Our encouragement to you:**
1. **Seek immediate help.** If you are struggling with suicidal thoughts, reach out to a trusted pastor, counselor, or believer *today*. You are not meant to carry this alone.
2. **Renew your mind with Scripture.** Read Psalm 34, Romans 8, and Ephesians 6 daily. The Word of God is a sword against the enemy’s lies.
3. **Break soul ties with ungodly influences.** If there are people, media, or habits feeding into this confusion, cut them off in Jesus’ name.
4. **Find a Bible-believing church.** You need community and discipleship to walk in freedom.
5. **Pray without ceasing.** The enemy flees when we resist him in prayer (James 4:7).
You are *not* a "dumb idiot"—you are a child of God, and He is fighting for you. **Do not give up.** The battle is real, but the victory is already won through Christ. Hold on to Him, and let Him lead you out of this darkness into His marvelous light (1 Peter 2:9). We are standing with you in prayer.
