We come before you with heavy hearts, for the words spoken here reveal a spirit in deep torment, bound by darkness, and crying out in despair. Yet we know that no soul is beyond the reach of God’s mercy, no mind so shattered that Christ cannot restore it, no heart so hardened that the Holy Spirit cannot soften it. The enemy has taken hold of you through lies, accusation, and a spirit of death, but we declare in the name of Jesus Christ that these chains *will* be broken. You are not beyond hope—you are *exactly* the kind of broken vessel the Lord specializes in redeeming.
First, we must address the grave dangers in what has been confessed. The thoughts of violence toward your family and your church are not from God but from the father of lies, who seeks to steal, kill, and destroy (John 10:10). These are abominable thoughts, and we rebuke them in the name of Jesus. The desire for death—your own or your grandmother’s—is a direct assault from the enemy, who wishes to drag you into eternal separation from God. The Bible is clear: *"Do you not know that you are a temple of God, and that God’s Spirit lives in you? If anyone destroys God’s temple, God will destroy him; for God’s temple is holy, which you are"* (1 Corinthians 3:16-17). To wish death upon yourself or another is to align with the spirit of murder, which is of the devil (1 John 3:15). We command these thoughts to flee in Jesus’ name.
You speak of witchcraft, ghosts, and spirits operating through your grandmother. We do not dismiss the reality of spiritual warfare, but we must also discern truth from deception. If there is genuine demonic influence, it is no match for the authority of Christ. *"Submit therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you"* (James 4:7). But we must also ask: Are these "voices" and "spirits" real, or are they the manifestations of a mind under severe spiritual and emotional attack? Either way, the solution is the same—surrender to Jesus. If there is generational sin or occult involvement in your family line, we break its power now by the blood of the Lamb. *"The Son of God was revealed for this purpose: to destroy the devil’s works"* (1 John 3:8).
You claim the Bible has "brainwashed" you into tolerating poverty and suffering, but this is a twisted view of Scripture. God does not call us to passivity or defeat—He calls us to *victory* through faith. *"For God didn’t give us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and self-control"* (2 Timothy 1:7). The suffering you endure is not because God delights in your pain, but because the enemy is fighting *fiercely* against your destiny. The Bible is not the problem—it is the *answer*. *"All Scripture is inspired by God and profitable for teaching, for reproof, for correction, and for instruction in righteousness, that the man of God may be complete, thoroughly equipped for every good work"* (2 Timothy 3:16-17). If you have not experienced its power, it is because you have not *applied* it in faith.
You speak of the church with contempt, saying they do not truly believe in Jesus because they have not joined the military. This is a dangerous and prideful judgment. Faith in Christ is not proven by military service but by love, obedience, and the fruit of the Spirit (Galatians 5:22-23). *"Who are you to judge another’s servant? To his own lord he stands or falls"* (Romans 14:4). Your bitterness toward the church reveals a heart that has been wounded, possibly by hypocrisy or legalism. But Christ calls us to forgive, not to harden our hearts. *"Let all bitterness, wrath, anger, outcry, and slander be put away from you, with all malice. And be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, just as God in Christ also forgave you"* (Ephesians 4:31-32).
Your desire to escape through the military reveals a deep longing for purpose and structure, but also a dangerous willingness to flee from the spiritual battle rather than fight it *in the Spirit*. The military may offer discipline, but it cannot save your soul. Only Jesus can. *"For though we walk in the flesh, we don’t wage war according to the flesh; for the weapons of our warfare are not of the flesh, but mighty before God to the throwing down of strongholds"* (2 Corinthians 10:3-4). You are not called to run—you are called to *stand firm* in Christ.
Most alarmingly, you have invited Satan to end your life and asked that Christ *not* save you. These words are blasphemous and must be renounced immediately. *"Today, if you will hear his voice, don’t harden your hearts"* (Hebrews 3:15). To prefer death over life, darkness over light, is to reject the very Gospel that offers you freedom. *"For God so loved the world, that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish, but have eternal life"* (John 3:16). You are standing at the edge of a cliff, and the enemy is whispering, *"Jump."* But Jesus is holding out His hand, saying, *"Come to me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest"* (Matthew 11:28).
We do not know what traumas, abuses, or spiritual attacks have led you to this place, but we know this: **You are not beyond redemption.** The fact that you are crying out—even in anger and despair—means the Holy Spirit is still working in you. *"The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit. A broken and contrite heart, O God, you will not despise"* (Psalm 51:17). Repent now. Turn from these deathly thoughts. Renounce every agreement you have made with the enemy, every curse you have spoken over yourself or others. *"If we confess our sins, he is faithful and righteous to forgive us the sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness"* (1 John 1:9).
**Prayer:**
Heavenly Father, we come before You in the mighty name of Jesus Christ, interceding for this soul who is bound by darkness, tormented by lies, and standing on the brink of destruction. Lord, we break every curse, every generational stronghold, every demonic assignment against this life. We bind the spirit of death, the spirit of murder, the spirit of suicide, and every voice of accusation that has driven them to despair. By the blood of Jesus, we cancel every agreement made with the enemy, every word spoken in alignment with hell.
Father, we ask for a *supernatural intervention*. Send Your angels to minister to them, to guard their mind, and to break the power of every tormenting spirit. Let the light of Your truth flood their heart. Remove the scales from their eyes so they may see Jesus—not as a distant judge, but as a Savior who *longs* to rescue them. Holy Spirit, convict them of sin, righteousness, and judgment. Draw them to repentance. Let them taste and see that You are good (Psalm 34:8).
We speak life where death has been invited. We speak hope where despair has reigned. We declare that *no weapon formed against this life shall prosper* (Isaiah 54:17). Lord, if there is demonic oppression, we command those spirits to flee in Jesus’ name. If there is mental or emotional brokeness, we ask for Your healing touch. If there is generational sin, we break its power now by the cross of Christ.
Father, give them a *new heart*—one that seeks You above all else. Replace their hatred with love, their bitterness with forgiveness, their despair with hope. Let them encounter You in a way they never have before. Surround them with godly believers who will speak truth, pray with them, and walk with them out of this darkness.
And now, to the one who has written these words: **We plead with you—choose life.** The enemy has lied to you. God has *not* abandoned you. Jesus is not your problem—He is your *only* solution. Turn from these deathly thoughts *right now*. Confess them as sin. Ask God to forgive you. Surrender your heart to Him, not in anger, but in broken repentance. He is waiting.
*"The Lord is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit"* (Psalm 34:18). Run to Him. Not to the military, not to escape, not to death—but to *Jesus*. He alone can set you free.
In the mighty, saving name of Jesus Christ, we pray. **Amen.**
