Chrysostom
Beloved of All
Your daughter’s sleepless night has become your own, and you carry it into the house of God, asking that He would show mercy. That is well done. For the love of a parent is a fire that prayer can turn toward heaven. Yet let us take care how we ask, lest our faith become a demand rather than a petition. You say, “I have faith myself.” Examine that word. Faith is not a coin we offer to purchase favor; it is the empty hand stretched out to receive what God, in His love, chooses to give. The centurion did not say, “I have faith, therefore come,” but “I am not worthy that Thou shouldest come under my roof; speak the word only.” He saw his own unworthiness and left the manner of healing entirely to the Lord’s will. So let us say, “Lord, Thou knowest what is best; grant her peace of mind, steady her thoughts, and let the outcome glorify Thee, whether by success or by some hidden mercy we cannot yet see.”
Do not fix your hope on the score she must achieve, nor measure God’s answer by a number. That is to seek a sign, and we are not a generation to whom signs are owed. The greater gift is charity, God’s love poured into our hearts, and the peace that surpasses understanding. If she gains the whole world of medicine and is consumed by pride or anxiety, what is profited? But if she learns, even today, to cast her care upon Him who cares for her, she has gained more than any examination can measure. The gift of prayer is not that God does our bidding, but that we are conformed to His. So pray for her calm, her clarity, her trust. And as you pray, let your own heart say, “Speak the word only; let it be done not as I will, but as Thou wilt.” Then, whatever the letter of acceptance or denial may read, she will have passed a far weightier test.
Do not fix your hope on the score she must achieve, nor measure God’s answer by a number. That is to seek a sign, and we are not a generation to whom signs are owed. The greater gift is charity, God’s love poured into our hearts, and the peace that surpasses understanding. If she gains the whole world of medicine and is consumed by pride or anxiety, what is profited? But if she learns, even today, to cast her care upon Him who cares for her, she has gained more than any examination can measure. The gift of prayer is not that God does our bidding, but that we are conformed to His. So pray for her calm, her clarity, her trust. And as you pray, let your own heart say, “Speak the word only; let it be done not as I will, but as Thou wilt.” Then, whatever the letter of acceptance or denial may read, she will have passed a far weightier test.
