Natasha 2
Beloved of All
I had an attack today in the school. The principle (female) called me today to her to discuss some subjects and I knew that something was wrong. It is hard these days in the school, because pupils are not respecting teachers because the laws are protecting them too much. Even the authorities in the school are supporting more children than us, it is WE TEACHERS that MUST find the way, not pupils, punishments are avoided to the maximum, and when teachers ask for help then this is the sign that we are not capable to do our job. I don't know if I am wrong, but I think something is not right very much here. Because of that I had pretty much problems in the ten years of my school work.
Today, at this meeting I felt so uncomfortable, a psychologist, young man, 15 years younger than I and with 7 years less experience than me executed on me some weird method of how to convince me (manipulation and control) that they are right and that I must do like they say I must do. I felt so undermined and my heart started racing and my mouth was dry, I felt fear that I will lose a job and that inspection will come because of some mistake of mine (in giving grades....some pupils with special needs are expecting that I will give them positive passing grades with no learning, and psychologist and pedagogist are convincing me to let them through and give them a few very easy questions and give them positive grades, it was silly to me....). Even the principle took some of my statements out of context and asked me do I want to be class teacher, and I said, no, she wanted to punish me, because she knows that it is so much work...
I am really fed up with those pedagogist and psychologist, they are making me feel like a little girl that knows nothing, I feel manipulated and like I don't know anything. Please stop this unjust ruling of ungodly people. I suffer in the school for 7 years from such kind of people....I BREAK ALL EVIL SPIRITS OF PRIDE AND SNEAKYNESS AND VINDICATION AND MANIPULATION AND INTIMIDATION AND CONTROL IN THE NAME OF JESUS!!!!!!!
I would like to have another job, not in the school, where I would feel respected, needed and well paid and maybe travel to Germany, France, Suisse, England...Everything is possible to God. I never wanted to work in the school, God please bring me out of my desert, give me the job for which I am made. Thank you God.
In the meantime, please pray that God will change them, or remove them from our school and bring some simple good psychologist and pedagogist, or give me a new job. Isn't it time, after 16 years of me not being satisfied with my job to finally enjoy??? Thank you God!!!
Today, at this meeting I felt so uncomfortable, a psychologist, young man, 15 years younger than I and with 7 years less experience than me executed on me some weird method of how to convince me (manipulation and control) that they are right and that I must do like they say I must do. I felt so undermined and my heart started racing and my mouth was dry, I felt fear that I will lose a job and that inspection will come because of some mistake of mine (in giving grades....some pupils with special needs are expecting that I will give them positive passing grades with no learning, and psychologist and pedagogist are convincing me to let them through and give them a few very easy questions and give them positive grades, it was silly to me....). Even the principle took some of my statements out of context and asked me do I want to be class teacher, and I said, no, she wanted to punish me, because she knows that it is so much work...
I am really fed up with those pedagogist and psychologist, they are making me feel like a little girl that knows nothing, I feel manipulated and like I don't know anything. Please stop this unjust ruling of ungodly people. I suffer in the school for 7 years from such kind of people....I BREAK ALL EVIL SPIRITS OF PRIDE AND SNEAKYNESS AND VINDICATION AND MANIPULATION AND INTIMIDATION AND CONTROL IN THE NAME OF JESUS!!!!!!!
I would like to have another job, not in the school, where I would feel respected, needed and well paid and maybe travel to Germany, France, Suisse, England...Everything is possible to God. I never wanted to work in the school, God please bring me out of my desert, give me the job for which I am made. Thank you God.
In the meantime, please pray that God will change them, or remove them from our school and bring some simple good psychologist and pedagogist, or give me a new job. Isn't it time, after 16 years of me not being satisfied with my job to finally enjoy??? Thank you God!!!
