mrcgilley
Disciple of Prayer
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My name is ###. I have come to a point where I am so DESPERATE where I just started searching GOOGLE for prayer request websites. I'll keep this as short as possible, but please believe me. However I explain and describe my prayer request, the actuality and severity of my need is far more serious and dire than I can probably explain.
I moved to Wisconsin after being gone for five years. I was away from my kids for those years, and it crushed them. My exwife got custody through manipulation, lies, threats, and the fact the the judge used to be her lawyer years ago before he was a judge and basically gives her whatever she asks for. I battled opiate addiction like a madman for those five years. I failed over and over again. Please believe me when I say that I hated it more than anything and tried EVERYTHING TO HEAL FROM IT. My divine healing never came for whatever reason. God only knows and I'm sure his reasons are greater than I know.
After all these years I got on Methadone and quit using illegal drugs. I was on methadone for the last 3 years only to find it's even stronger than heroin, harder to quit or "wean off", than any other opiate, and the withdrawals are far stronger, more miserable, more severe, more dangerous, and last 10 times longer than heroin or any other opiate.
I had the opportunity to return to Wisconsin for a weekend and asked my exwife if I could see my kids for ONE DAY during this weekend. She agreed immediately which worried me but it was worth the risk. They mean more to me than life itself. So much so that I cannot even begin to describe or explain. I was behind in child support due to miscommunication, and going to school full time trying to get an education to get a better job. I didn't know there were warrants out for my arrest in Wisconsin, in the county my ex and kids live in. She never intended on allowing me to see them. Instead when I called and informed her I was pulling into town to pick them up, she got on the phone and called the cops telling them her ex who has warrants out would be at her house in minutes, then told my ten year old son to go out on the porch for a surprise. She intended on him seeing his daddy who he still thinks the world of, get arrested and taken to jail. Well that's what happened. I was arrested and spent twenty-six days in jail where I suffered the most grueling agony of methadone withdrawal including temporary insanity wanting to kill myself just to end the suffering. After three weeks it started to subside. Somehow which I believe was really the Lord's intervention in the court proceedings...somehow instead of the three months I should have spent in jail, my court appointed attorney convinced the D.A. to let me out on a signature bond. So I got out and my ex had no choice but to follow the court's ruling of her letting my kids go with me every other weekend if I agree to move back to WI. The Lord has taken me through a short but intense journey with all of this. One stipulation of me staying out of jail and not serving a long multiple year sentence is that I find a full-time job, and KEEP it. I found a factory job that paid not so well, but it satisfied the conditions and I've been seeing my kids every other weekend. I got blessed with the most unexpected and amazing job offer which pays way more and is more secure with amazing benefits. Now, if I quit a job it violates my probation and it's GAME OVER. So I quit my current job, and accepted the job offer. I am supposed to start in two days at my other job. The courts are fine with this since I actually got the other job before quitting the current job. If anything were to happen where I couldn't start the new one on Monday, it's an automatic probation violation and I go to jail for a long time NO QUESTIONS ASKED, and I lose all that I've gained, and probably forever this time. Well, my girlfriend and I have two vehicles, no money, but enough to get by til I get paid, and she's in school full time and works full time. Well, yesterday all in one day..just days before the new job, her car's engine block cracked with the only fix being buy another car and just as I was taking relief in at least having another vehicle....a tire on the truck blew with no one around to fix it this weekend and really no real source of money to have someone fix it before my first day, and no one to help out with a ride or another vehicle. So basically in one day my world has come to a screeching halt, and I am slowly watching it all slip away. I've considered packing a bag and running. I cannot go back to jail because it will be the end of me and my kids and will ruin everything. All because of these two vehicles breaking down. I know that the only way out of this situation and mess is one thing. A certifiable and absolute MIRACLE from the Lord. Which I KNOW IS POSSIBLE AND HE CAN SURELY DO and I know he doesn't want me to fail. He's brought me way too far to have it all end now. PLEASE....PLEASE....PLEASE.....can someone, or more than one person if possible lift me and my situation and needs up in prayer tonight or tomorrow or soon. If there was any time I needed the Lord to show me he's with me, which I've always struggled with believing....it's now. I don't need proof that he's God and that has power etc... I love the Lord and just need him to take this and make a miracle out of it for me. THANK YOU FOR YOUR PRAYERS AND GOD BLESS!!
My name is ###. I have come to a point where I am so DESPERATE where I just started searching GOOGLE for prayer request websites. I'll keep this as short as possible, but please believe me. However I explain and describe my prayer request, the actuality and severity of my need is far more serious and dire than I can probably explain.
I moved to Wisconsin after being gone for five years. I was away from my kids for those years, and it crushed them. My exwife got custody through manipulation, lies, threats, and the fact the the judge used to be her lawyer years ago before he was a judge and basically gives her whatever she asks for. I battled opiate addiction like a madman for those five years. I failed over and over again. Please believe me when I say that I hated it more than anything and tried EVERYTHING TO HEAL FROM IT. My divine healing never came for whatever reason. God only knows and I'm sure his reasons are greater than I know.
After all these years I got on Methadone and quit using illegal drugs. I was on methadone for the last 3 years only to find it's even stronger than heroin, harder to quit or "wean off", than any other opiate, and the withdrawals are far stronger, more miserable, more severe, more dangerous, and last 10 times longer than heroin or any other opiate.
I had the opportunity to return to Wisconsin for a weekend and asked my exwife if I could see my kids for ONE DAY during this weekend. She agreed immediately which worried me but it was worth the risk. They mean more to me than life itself. So much so that I cannot even begin to describe or explain. I was behind in child support due to miscommunication, and going to school full time trying to get an education to get a better job. I didn't know there were warrants out for my arrest in Wisconsin, in the county my ex and kids live in. She never intended on allowing me to see them. Instead when I called and informed her I was pulling into town to pick them up, she got on the phone and called the cops telling them her ex who has warrants out would be at her house in minutes, then told my ten year old son to go out on the porch for a surprise. She intended on him seeing his daddy who he still thinks the world of, get arrested and taken to jail. Well that's what happened. I was arrested and spent twenty-six days in jail where I suffered the most grueling agony of methadone withdrawal including temporary insanity wanting to kill myself just to end the suffering. After three weeks it started to subside. Somehow which I believe was really the Lord's intervention in the court proceedings...somehow instead of the three months I should have spent in jail, my court appointed attorney convinced the D.A. to let me out on a signature bond. So I got out and my ex had no choice but to follow the court's ruling of her letting my kids go with me every other weekend if I agree to move back to WI. The Lord has taken me through a short but intense journey with all of this. One stipulation of me staying out of jail and not serving a long multiple year sentence is that I find a full-time job, and KEEP it. I found a factory job that paid not so well, but it satisfied the conditions and I've been seeing my kids every other weekend. I got blessed with the most unexpected and amazing job offer which pays way more and is more secure with amazing benefits. Now, if I quit a job it violates my probation and it's GAME OVER. So I quit my current job, and accepted the job offer. I am supposed to start in two days at my other job. The courts are fine with this since I actually got the other job before quitting the current job. If anything were to happen where I couldn't start the new one on Monday, it's an automatic probation violation and I go to jail for a long time NO QUESTIONS ASKED, and I lose all that I've gained, and probably forever this time. Well, my girlfriend and I have two vehicles, no money, but enough to get by til I get paid, and she's in school full time and works full time. Well, yesterday all in one day..just days before the new job, her car's engine block cracked with the only fix being buy another car and just as I was taking relief in at least having another vehicle....a tire on the truck blew with no one around to fix it this weekend and really no real source of money to have someone fix it before my first day, and no one to help out with a ride or another vehicle. So basically in one day my world has come to a screeching halt, and I am slowly watching it all slip away. I've considered packing a bag and running. I cannot go back to jail because it will be the end of me and my kids and will ruin everything. All because of these two vehicles breaking down. I know that the only way out of this situation and mess is one thing. A certifiable and absolute MIRACLE from the Lord. Which I KNOW IS POSSIBLE AND HE CAN SURELY DO and I know he doesn't want me to fail. He's brought me way too far to have it all end now. PLEASE....PLEASE....PLEASE.....can someone, or more than one person if possible lift me and my situation and needs up in prayer tonight or tomorrow or soon. If there was any time I needed the Lord to show me he's with me, which I've always struggled with believing....it's now. I don't need proof that he's God and that has power etc... I love the Lord and just need him to take this and make a miracle out of it for me. THANK YOU FOR YOUR PRAYERS AND GOD BLESS!!
