We come before the Lord with heavy hearts, grieving over the pain and despair you are experiencing, yet we also rejoice that you have turned to Jesus in the midst of your suffering. Your words reveal deep spiritual warfare, emotional torment, and a cry for deliverance—and we stand with you in the name of Jesus Christ, who alone has the power to break every curse, silence every accusation, and bring victory over the enemy’s schemes.
First, we must address the dangerous thoughts of self-harm. The enemy seeks to steal, kill, and destroy (John 10:10), and these thoughts are not from God. Suicide is a permanent solution to temporary suffering, and it robs God of the opportunity to redeem your story for His glory. The Lord says, *"Don’t be afraid, for I am with you. Don’t be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you. Yes, I will help you. Yes, I will uphold you with the right hand of my righteousness"* (Isaiah 41:10, WEB). Your life is precious to Him, and He has a purpose for you—even in this season of affliction. We plead with you to reject these lies and cling to the hope found only in Christ.
You mention a religious attack and a belief that your mother’s struggles are a "curse" tied to your past inaction when someone assaulted your grandmother’s car. While we do not dismiss the reality of spiritual warfare, we must be careful not to assign blame in ways that contradict Scripture. The Bible warns against attributing every hardship to a specific curse or personal failure, for *"all things work together for good for those who love God, for those who are called according to his purpose"* (Romans 8:28, WEB). If there is generational sin or unrepented wrongdoing, the answer is not despair but repentance and the blood of Jesus, which *"cleanses us from all sin"* (1 John 1:7, WEB). Have you confessed any known sin—whether action or inaction—to the Lord? If not, we urge you to do so now, for *"if we confess our sins, he is faithful and righteous to forgive us the sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness"* (1 John 1:9, WEB).
You also express bitterness toward the Lord, calling Him "petty" and feeling abandoned in your suffering. Beloved, this is a dangerous place to remain. Job, in his agony, questioned God’s ways, yet when the Lord revealed Himself, Job repented *"in dust and ashes"* (Job 42:6). God is not petty—He is sovereign, just, and full of mercy. His ways are higher than ours (Isaiah 55:8-9), and even in suffering, He is working for our eternal good. We encourage you to humble yourself before Him, as *"God resists the proud, but gives grace to the humble"* (James 4:6, WEB). Cry out to Him in honesty, but also in surrender, trusting that *"the Lord is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit"* (Psalm 34:18, WEB).
As for the attacks you describe—whether spiritual, emotional, or relational—we declare over you the authority of Jesus Christ, who *"disarmed the principalities and powers"* and *"made a public spectacle of them, triumphing over them in it"* (Colossians 2:15, WEB). No weapon formed against you shall prosper (Isaiah 54:17), and every tongue that rises against you in judgment, you shall condemn (Isaiah 54:17). The enemy has no right to torment you, for *"greater is he who is in you than he who is in the world"* (1 John 4:4, WEB). We bind every spirit of fear, accusation, and despair in Jesus’ name and command them to flee from your life.
Regarding your mother, we pray for reconciliation and healing. If there is strife or resentment between you, we urge you to seek peace as far as it depends on you (Romans 12:18). Forgive as Christ forgave you (Colossians 3:13), and trust the Lord to soften hearts. If she is truly acting out of covetousness or vengeance, we pray the Lord would convict her and bring repentance. But you, too, must release any bitterness, for *"the anger of man doesn’t produce the righteousness of God"* (James 1:20, WEB).
Finally, we notice that while you ended with a mention of Jesus, much of your plea was directed at circumstances rather than to the throne of God. There is no victory, no deliverance, and no salvation apart from the name of Jesus Christ. *"There is no other name under heaven that is given among men, by which we must be saved!"* (Acts 4:12, WEB). If you have not fully surrendered your life to Him—trusting in His death and resurrection for your salvation—we implore you to do so now. Confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead, *"and you will be saved"* (Romans 10:9, WEB).
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**Let us pray:**
Heavenly Father, we come before You on behalf of Your child, who is weary, wounded, and crying out for deliverance. Lord, we ask that You break every chain of despair, every spirit of suicide, and every lie of the enemy that says there is no hope. Fill them with Your peace that surpasses understanding and remind them that You are near to the brokenhearted.
We rebuke every spirit of fear, accusation, and torment in the mighty name of Jesus. No weapon formed against them shall prosper, and every tongue that rises against them in judgment, they shall condemn. Lord, if there is any unconfessed sin—whether of action or inaction—we ask for Your conviction and cleansing. Let the blood of Jesus wash over them and break every curse, every generational stronghold, and every assignment of the enemy against their life.
We pray for healing in their relationship with their mother. Soften hearts, Lord, and bring reconciliation where there is strife. If there is any covetousness or vengeance at work, expose it and bring repentance. Let forgiveness flow, and let Your love cover every offense.
Father, we declare that You are not petty—You are holy, just, and full of mercy. Forgive them for any bitterness toward You, and reveal Your goodness in the midst of their suffering. Remind them that You are working all things for their good, even when they cannot see it.
We speak life over them, Lord. Replace their thoughts of death with Your promises of hope and a future (Jeremiah 29:11). Strengthen them to stand firm in faith, knowing that the battle belongs to You. Let them experience Your overwhelming victory, not because of their own strength, but because of Your mighty power at work in them.
In the name of Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior, we pray. Amen.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
