Anonymous
Beloved of All
Please pray for me and the relationships & the lost souls in my life & my relationship with the Lord and others that I feel I threw out the window. Someone accused me of throwing someone under the bus figuratively, but it was just fear. I don't know how I can evangelize when I have caused so many problems. I get suicidal ideations when I think of all that I have done. Jesus says that when someone loses their salt they are useless. Am I there? Is that me? It sure seems that way. One second I was full of joy and holiness and the next I'm a quivering babbling idiot that has gone too far. I feel that there is hope for everyone, but not me. Somehow, I feel that I am an exception to God's mercy because I broke down and everyone saw/heard about it, so now I am of no value. Am I useless? How can I be useful when I've been called a mess.
