God bless U, Robert. Robert U said this started way back. Robert all this is the result from Adam & Eve. All of us has something to deal with. When sin came into the world it brought for all of this. Don't blame God, He gave us a free will to make choice. He does not tamper with our will. He does not force Himself on us. But God made provision for our sin, for the consequences of sin, for the damage that sin has on our life through Jesus Christ. The word of God says "People persish for a lack of wisdom/vision". We often say "if only I had know, I would not have done that", or I didn't know".
Robert, God wants U free more than U want for yourself. "Know the truth, & it will set U free. Jesus is the answer for your emotional situation. U see, our mind is satan playground, he wants to keep us in bondage, but once we come under the authority of Jesus Christ, we begin to be set free. He came to seek & save the lost. It is not everyone will receive him but "to them that receive Him, He gave them power to become sons /daughters of God.
Robert say this prayer, Lord Jesus, I believe that U are the son of God, the saviour, redeemer, deliverer, the sanctifier, & more who came in the flesh to destroy the works of the devil, even the traumatic experience I had way back which satan has built up his forth in me, U came to destroy it, U came too save me from my sins, for we are all sinners & we cannot save ourself, but U came for me, forgive me of my sins, cleanse me by your blood. Thank U father through Jesus Christ & saviour.
Jesus: U know of the plans that satan wants to destroy my life through whatever experience that contribute to depression, fear, anxiety, I am sick of it, in my spirit, soul, & body, deliver me from the hands of your enemy, my enemy. Father, it is like my soul is tied & chained to these spirit, I want to be loose from it. I want my freedom, I don't want to be held captive by these evil spirit in my mind. I now render them powerless, for I am loved by Jesus. I am fearfully & wonderfully created by God.
Your words says "Perfect love caseth out all fears" For God has not given me a spirit of Fear but of power, Love, & sound mind in Jesus name. So whatever traumatic experience U had to submitt to God, for it is where satan set up his stronghold. Father, we bind the stronghold, foothold that satan had set up here, we plead the blood of Jesus over Robert, soul, spirit, body.
Robert, forgive those & pray for those who have offended & sin against you, so full healing & deliverance can take place. God bless U. U are more than conquerer in Christ Jesus. Only in Jesus now. Get yourself a Bible, read plasms, all read scriptures on forgiveness.