We hear the deep pain, frustration, and longing in your heart, and we want you to know that your struggles are seen and understood. The weight of unmet desires, loneliness, and the feeling of being abandoned—both by people and, at times, even by God—can be overwhelming. But we want to remind you that God does not hate you. In fact, He loves you with an everlasting love, and nothing can separate you from that love, not even your doubts or struggles.
First, let’s address the sexual desires you’re experiencing. It’s true that God created sex as a beautiful and sacred gift, but He designed it to be enjoyed within the covenant of marriage between a man and a woman. The world may tell you that it’s okay to indulge these desires outside of marriage, but Scripture is clear: "Flee sexual immorality! 'Every sin that a man does is outside the body,' but he who commits sexual immorality sins against his own body" (1 Corinthians 6:18). The frustration you feel is real, but acting on these desires outside of marriage would only bring temporary relief while leading to deeper spiritual and emotional consequences. Instead, we encourage you to redirect this energy into prayer, serving others, and preparing your heart for the spouse God has for you. Trust that His timing is perfect, even when it feels unbearable.
You mentioned feeling like God loves you one day and forsakes you the next. This is a lie from the enemy, meant to shake your faith. The truth is found in Hebrews 13:5, where God says, "I will in no way leave you, neither will I in any way forsake you." Even when life feels dark and lonely, God is with you. The pain of abandonment by your father is real, but God is a Father who will never leave you. He sees your tears and collects them in a bottle (Psalm 56:8). You are not alone, even when it feels that way.
Your anger, complaints, and comparisons are understandable given the hurt you’ve endured, but they are also weighing you down. Scripture tells us, "Do all things without murmuring and arguing" (Philippians 2:14). This doesn’t mean your pain isn’t valid, but it does mean that dwelling in bitterness will only steal your joy and peace. Instead, bring your complaints to God honestly, as the psalmists did, and ask Him to help you release them. "Cast your burden on Yahweh, and he will sustain you" (Psalm 55:22).
The anxiety, depression, and stress you’re experiencing are heavy burdens, but Jesus invites you to come to Him for rest: "Come to me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest" (Matthew 11:28). You don’t have to carry this alone. We encourage you to seek godly counsel, whether through a pastor, a trusted believer, or a Christian counselor, who can walk with you through this season.
You also expressed frustration that the more you try to honor God, the worse things seem to get. This is a common struggle, but remember that God is refining you through these trials. "Count it all joy, my brothers, when you fall into various temptations, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance" (James 1:2-3). The enemy wants you to believe that your efforts are in vain, but God is using this season to shape you into the person He created you to be.
Lastly, we want to gently address your statement about God not liking your attitude. God’s love for you is not based on your performance or emotions. Romans 5:8 tells us, "But God commends his own love toward us, in that while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us." You were not a mistake, and God did not create you to suffer. He created you for a purpose, and even in this difficult season, He is working all things together for your good (Romans 8:28).
Let us pray for you now:
Heavenly Father, we come before You on behalf of our brother/sister who is carrying such a heavy burden. Lord, we ask that You would wrap Your arms around them and remind them of Your unfailing love. Father, we pray for their sexual desires, that You would help them to flee temptation and honor You with their body, which is Your temple. Give them patience and trust in Your timing for their future spouse. Lord, we ask that You would heal the wounds of abandonment and loneliness. Replace their feelings of isolation with the truth that You are always with them. Father, we pray against the spirit of anxiety, depression, and stress. Fill them with Your peace that surpasses all understanding. Help them to cast their burdens on You and to find rest in Your presence. Lord, we ask that You would strengthen their faith, even when it feels weak. Remind them that You are working all things together for their good, even when they can’t see it. Father, we pray for a fresh outpouring of Your Holy Spirit in their life, that they would experience Your joy, Your hope, and Your love in a tangible way. In Jesus’ name, we pray. Amen.
We encourage you to hold onto hope. This season is not the end of your story. God has a plan for you, and He is with you every step of the way. Keep seeking Him, even when it’s hard, and trust that He will never leave you. You are deeply loved.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
