Strengt, Courage,

[Vanessa Swartz]

I'm 30 years of age. Was born converted for 3years about 4years ago. I literally walked with God. I don't know what happened. Everything went wrong from career, family, love, finance. I have been slap with so many disappointments and heartache more than I can handle. I have a son Juan his 2years and 8months. Its been difficult to stay strong and not cry in front of him. Ive been praying and praying. The bible God heals a broken heart but it feels like bad luck is following me everywhere. I went to someone to pray for me. I want to believe that I will find happiness very soon. I don't want to be in this broken down state anymore I want to see the light at the end of this cloud.

 

[JFSD]

It's when we come to the end of ourselves and are at our most broken and dependent that God can work on us the most. Pour out your heart to Him and don't hold back, even if you're angry, just how David prayed. I know you're in a vulnerable place but I feel like I can talk to you because I've been a Christian only 5 years and have been where you are now. There were times when I thought God had forgotten about me and it seemed like anything that could go wrong did go wrong. I felt like everyday was shrouded in darkness, and I'd pray for the darkness to be taken away to no avail. But I remembered that we are supposed to be a light in the darkness, and realized that I had to trust that God was still there and that there was a purpose to this desert period, and I dwelled on the blessings and the wonderful things He'd done in my life in the past, and be hopeful about the future, and simply choose to dwell on good things and be full of light. I realize now that what I went through was normal in the lives of Christians, and that gold is tested in a furness.

I began reading my Bible dedicatedley, praying with expection, AS IF everything was going well in my life.

If you can muster up your strength in this dark time to Praise God aloud for the good in your life (once you start looking you'll see there's a lot to be thankful for) you will come out of this trial stronger and closer to God than ever. Please believe me that there IS a light at the end of the tunnel, so keep smiling til you see it!