We hear the deep anguish and confusion in your words, and our hearts break for the torment you are experiencing. The language you’ve used suggests spiritual warfare, oppression, and perhaps even demonic influence—things the Bible warns us about clearly. The enemy, Satan, comes to steal, kill, and destroy (John 10:10), and it sounds as though you feel utterly overwhelmed by his attacks. But we must remind you, and ourselves, that Jesus came to give life, and life abundantly. He has already defeated the powers of darkness through His death and resurrection (Colossians 2:15), and in His name, we have authority to resist the devil (James 4:7).
First, we must address the mention of "speaking things into existence" and commanding or decreeing in a way that aligns with the language of the occult or New Age spirituality. The Bible teaches that God alone is the Creator, and while we are called to pray with faith and declare His truth (Mark 11:23-24), we do not have the power to create reality by our words alone. That is a dangerous deception that exalts man’s power over God’s sovereignty. We must repent of any involvement in such practices, as they open doors to spiritual deception and bondage (Deuteronomy 18:10-12). The only name by which we have power is the name of Jesus Christ, and even then, our words must align with His will, not our own desires.
The numbness, the feeling of being "ripped apart," the loss of identity, and the despair you describe are not from God. The Bible tells us that God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and a sound mind (2 Timothy 1:7). If you are feeling like a "cold killer" or like you’ve been turned into a "monster," this is not who God created you to be. You are fearfully and wonderfully made in His image (Psalm 139:14), and He calls you His beloved child (1 John 3:1). The enemy wants you to believe you are beyond saving, but that is a lie. Jesus came to seek and save the lost (Luke 19:10), and no one is too far gone for His grace.
We must also address the mention of your eyesight failing and your name being "killed." These sound like physical and spiritual attacks, and we take them seriously. The Bible tells us that Satan is like a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour (1 Peter 5:8), but we are called to resist him, standing firm in our faith. We do not believe in curses or hexes as having power over a believer in Christ, for "the one who is in you is greater than the one who is in the world" (1 John 4:4). However, we must examine our lives for any unconfessed sin, unforgiveness, or areas where we may have given the enemy a foothold (Ephesians 4:26-27). If there has been involvement in the occult, false religions, or any form of idolatry, we must renounce these things in the name of Jesus and ask for His cleansing (Acts 19:18-19).
Most importantly, we must ask: Have you placed your faith in Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior? The Bible tells us that "if you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead, you will be saved" (Romans 10:9). Salvation is not earned by our works but is a free gift of God’s grace (Ephesians 2:8-9). If you have never surrendered your life to Jesus, or if you have wandered from Him, we urge you to do so now. There is no other name under heaven by which we can be saved (Acts 4:12). Jesus is the way, the truth, and the life (John 14:6), and He alone can break the chains of darkness and bring true healing.
We also want to speak to the mention of your family and the guilt you feel over not being able to "save" them or stop the darkness. While we are called to be light in the darkness and to share the love of Christ with others, we cannot save anyone—only Jesus can do that. Your worth is not defined by your ability to "fix" others or by their perception of you. You are deeply loved by God, and His grace is sufficient for you (2 Corinthians 12:9). If you have been made to feel like a failure or a monster, we rebuke those lies in the name of Jesus. You are a child of God, and He delights in you (Zephaniah 3:17).
Now, let us pray together in the authority of Jesus’ name:
Heavenly Father, we come before You with heavy hearts, lifting up this precious soul who is crying out in pain and despair. Lord, we ask that You would break every chain of darkness that has wrapped itself around their mind, body, and spirit. We rebuke the lies of the enemy that have told them they are beyond saving, that they are a monster, or that their name has been erased. In the name of Jesus, we command every spirit of oppression, confusion, and despair to flee right now. We declare that this child of God is covered by the blood of Jesus, and no weapon formed against them shall prosper (Isaiah 54:17).
Father, we ask that You would open their eyes to see the truth of who You are and who they are in You. Remind them that they are fearfully and wonderfully made, that they are Your beloved child, and that You have a purpose and a plan for their life (Jeremiah 29:11). Lord, if there has been any involvement in the occult, false teachings, or anything that has opened doors to the enemy, we ask that You would bring conviction, repentance, and cleansing. Wash them clean by the blood of Jesus and restore their soul (Psalm 23:3).
We pray for physical healing, Lord. If their eyesight is failing, we ask that You would restore it. If their body is weak, we ask that You would strengthen it. You are the Great Physician, and nothing is too hard for You (Jeremiah 32:17). We also pray for their mind, Lord. Bring clarity where there is confusion, peace where there is turmoil, and hope where there is despair. Renew their mind by Your Word (Romans 12:2) and fill them with Your Holy Spirit.
Father, we ask that You would surround them with godly believers who can speak life into them, pray over them, and walk alongside them in their journey. Protect them from isolation, for the enemy seeks to separate them from the body of Christ. Remind them that they are never alone, for You are with them always (Matthew 28:20).
If they have not yet placed their faith in Jesus Christ, we pray that You would draw them to Yourself. Soften their heart to receive the truth of the gospel, that Jesus died for their sins and rose again so that they might have eternal life. May they confess Him as Lord and be saved (Romans 10:9). If they have wandered from You, we pray that You would woo them back with Your unfailing love (Hosea 11:4).
Lord, we also pray for their family. We ask that You would break any generational curses or strongholds that have been passed down, and that You would pour out Your Spirit upon them. Draw them to Yourself, Lord, and let them experience the freedom and healing that only You can provide.
We thank You, Father, that You are a God who hears our prayers and moves on behalf of Your children. We trust in Your goodness, Your mercy, and Your power to bring restoration. We declare that this is not the end of their story, for You are making all things new (Revelation 21:5). In the mighty name of Jesus, we pray. Amen.
Friend, we urge you not to give up. The enemy wants you to believe that you are alone, that you are beyond hope, and that there is no way out. But that is not true. Jesus came to set the captives free (Luke 4:18), and He is reaching out to you right now. If you have never asked Jesus into your heart, we encourage you to do so today. Simply pray something like this:
"Lord Jesus, I confess that I am a sinner in need of Your grace. I believe that You died for my sins and rose again. I ask You to come into my heart, forgive my sins, and be my Lord and Savior. I renounce any involvement in the occult or false teachings, and I ask You to cleanse me by Your blood. Fill me with Your Holy Spirit and help me to walk in Your truth. Thank You for saving me. In Jesus’ name, Amen."
If you prayed that prayer, we rejoice with you! The Bible says that if you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead, you are saved (Romans 10:9). We encourage you to find a Bible-believing church where you can grow in your faith, be baptized, and connect with other believers. The journey ahead may not be easy, but you are not walking it alone. God is with you, and He will never leave you nor forsake you (Hebrews 13:5).
If you are already a believer, we encourage you to repent of any sin, renounce any involvement in the occult or false teachings, and seek godly counsel. Surround yourself with believers who can pray with you and support you. The enemy may have meant this for harm, but God can turn it around for good (Genesis 50:20). Keep your eyes fixed on Jesus, the author and perfecter of your faith (Hebrews 12:2), and trust in His power to bring healing and restoration.
You are not a monster. You are not beyond saving. You are a child of the Most High God, and He loves you with an everlasting love (Jeremiah 31:3). Do not let the enemy steal your hope. Hold on to Jesus, and let Him lead you into the light.
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