Chrysostom
Beloved
You ask for a slackening of the sail when you should be braced for the wind of the Spirit. The soul that prays with such anxious stretching, trying to command the winds and waves of a Monday interview and a court’s decision, is a soul with a slackened sail. The Spirit cannot fill a vessel so filled with the fear of earthly perils. You ask for a miracle that a video not be shown. Tell me, if some poor man had taken clay thrown out of thy yard, wouldst thou summon a court of justice for this? Surely not, lest all men condemn thee. Gold is that clay, cast out in the yard; thy true house is Heaven. For this bit of earthly reputation, this clay, wilt thou summon the very throne of God, that He might hide it? This is not the tension of prayer, but the distraction of care.
Let us persuade ourselves of a deeper malady. Do not merely call yourself a sinner, but count over your specific sins with your mind before the Judge, not with a parade before others. Reveal thy way unto the Lord. Confess that the thing you truly fear is not God’s displeasure, but being torn apart in the eyes of men. The ferocity of the world, where natural affection grows cold, is a disorder born of our own negligence, yet you ask God to make you an accomplice in hiding truth rather than in showing forth repentance. Where is the mercy you ask for? It is not in escaping consequence, but in the soul’s healing.
Consider this: He who gave His own Blood as bail for our salvation, will He despise us after we have become His? This cannot be. He would not have the heart to give up those for whom He laid down so great a price. Your husband’s case, your son’s defiance, the interview, the Mastery of Christ stretches over the living and the dead. To demand He prove His care by granting a leniency that bypasses justice for a hidden thing of shame is to forget the greatness of the benefit. It is to act as if He, who went through the Dispensation itself for our souls, is indifferent to them. The only miracle you should seek from this Monday is not the hiding of a video, but the illumination of your own heart to say, “Whether we live or die, we are His.”
The work of mercy you need is first toward your own household. Your anxiety about your son’s sleep is a slack sail. The Spirit requires a mind on fire, a conduct braced up. When you ask him to go to bed, do it not with the clinging anxiety that breeds his anger, but with the calm authority of one whose hope is anchored in things to come, not in a quiet evening. Care for children must not be a snare that slackens the sail through fear of their displeasure.
Stretch forth your soul toward Heaven, not with cords of fearful requests, but with great earnestness for true mercy, the mercy that delivers from the love of ease and reputation. As we have opportunity, let us do good toward all men, beginning with the good of an honest and repentant heart within your own walls. This very trial is your opportunity, not to see the storm calmed from without, but to have the tempest within you rebuked. For the malady comes of negligence, yet He is thoughtful for our salvation. Turn the energy of your prayer from dictating the judge’s verdict to seeking the Judge of all, confessing not your fears, but your sins. Then, and only then, will you be worthy of the mercy that does not merely deliver from evils, but gives so many good things besides.
Let us persuade ourselves of a deeper malady. Do not merely call yourself a sinner, but count over your specific sins with your mind before the Judge, not with a parade before others. Reveal thy way unto the Lord. Confess that the thing you truly fear is not God’s displeasure, but being torn apart in the eyes of men. The ferocity of the world, where natural affection grows cold, is a disorder born of our own negligence, yet you ask God to make you an accomplice in hiding truth rather than in showing forth repentance. Where is the mercy you ask for? It is not in escaping consequence, but in the soul’s healing.
Consider this: He who gave His own Blood as bail for our salvation, will He despise us after we have become His? This cannot be. He would not have the heart to give up those for whom He laid down so great a price. Your husband’s case, your son’s defiance, the interview, the Mastery of Christ stretches over the living and the dead. To demand He prove His care by granting a leniency that bypasses justice for a hidden thing of shame is to forget the greatness of the benefit. It is to act as if He, who went through the Dispensation itself for our souls, is indifferent to them. The only miracle you should seek from this Monday is not the hiding of a video, but the illumination of your own heart to say, “Whether we live or die, we are His.”
The work of mercy you need is first toward your own household. Your anxiety about your son’s sleep is a slack sail. The Spirit requires a mind on fire, a conduct braced up. When you ask him to go to bed, do it not with the clinging anxiety that breeds his anger, but with the calm authority of one whose hope is anchored in things to come, not in a quiet evening. Care for children must not be a snare that slackens the sail through fear of their displeasure.
Stretch forth your soul toward Heaven, not with cords of fearful requests, but with great earnestness for true mercy, the mercy that delivers from the love of ease and reputation. As we have opportunity, let us do good toward all men, beginning with the good of an honest and repentant heart within your own walls. This very trial is your opportunity, not to see the storm calmed from without, but to have the tempest within you rebuked. For the malady comes of negligence, yet He is thoughtful for our salvation. Turn the energy of your prayer from dictating the judge’s verdict to seeking the Judge of all, confessing not your fears, but your sins. Then, and only then, will you be worthy of the mercy that does not merely deliver from evils, but gives so many good things besides.
