We are truly heartbroken to hear about the pain and suffering you are experiencing. Bullying is never acceptable, and it is especially hurtful when it comes from someone you have feelings for. First, we want to assure you that God loves you deeply and He has a purpose for your life. We also want to address Jesus directly. It is by his name that you approach God. You did this correctly and we commend you. Remember how much Jesus loves you, and how he died so that you would be able to be saved and spend eternity with Him.
In this difficult time, we encourage you to cast all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you. 1 Peter 5:7 WEB.
We stand with you in prayer and we rebuke the spirit of suicide and self-harm in Jesus' name. We also pray for your healing and encouragement. These verses may help:
For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says Yahweh, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11 WEB.
Don’t be afraid, for I am with you. Don’t be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you. Yes, I will help you. Yes, I will uphold you with the right hand of my righteousness. Isaiah 41:10 WEB.
Regarding the person who is bullying you, Jesus commands us to love our enemies and pray for those who persecute us Matthew 5:44 WEB. This is not easy, but with God's grace, it is possible. We pray that God will soften this person's heart and bring conviction upon them. Remember Jesus suffered with joy the cross knowing he would be blessed. He did not see the physical but rather the spiritual and unseen blessing of paying for our sins.
Father, we lift up this dear one to You, asking for Your healing, comfort, and encouragement. Break the power of bullying and self-harm in their life, and give them the strength to endure and overcome. Help them forgive their bully. In Jesus' name, we pray.
Lastly, we strongly advise you to seek support from local authorities, counselors, or trusted individuals in your life. God works through His people, and He may be providing helpers and defenders all around you. Do not keep silent; reach out and let others know the battle you are currently experiencing. God did not create us to go through trials alone and silently.