Self-Hatred

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It seems that going to work is like dropping me in a pool of fear where I am so anxious and terrified it will all go wrong again. I blame people for their spiteful glare and stare, and then I hate them as I hate myself for not being in control of becoming a loving figure to look at ... one that inspires loving smiles of approval I so desperately need in order to be happy.

Lying to myself saying that it does not (should not) matter whether people love me or not is of no help. Over and over again such diligently enforced belief will be brought to the painful recognition that I really so much need love and affection.

I need to change my ways, but of my own power it has been proven that I can't. My prayer request is that I NOW surrender my will entirely and wholeheartedly to God. May He accept my plea and transform my mind and the way I think by the power of His will, not mine.

Thank you.
 
It seems that going to work is like dropping me in a pool of fear where I am so anxious and terrified it will all go wrong again. I blame people for their spiteful glare and stare, and then I hate them as I hate myself for not being in control of becoming a loving figure to look at ... one that inspires loving smiles of approval I so desperately need in order to be happy.

Lying to myself saying that it does not (should not) matter whether people love me or not is of no help. Over and over again such diligently enforced belief will be brought to the painful recognition that I really so much need love and affection.

I need to change my ways, but of my own power it has been proven that I can't. My prayer request is that I NOW surrender my will entirely and wholeheartedly to God. May He accept my plea and transform my mind and the way I think by the power of His will, not mine.

Thank you.
You know why I havent left Jesus? its because no matter what I do no matter what I say no matter what I look like wether Im feeling fat...slim and pretty ugly or what ever it maybe be he still makes me feel like all his attention...and love...ask him if he can do that for you..ill ask for you as well, amen
 
Our heavenly Father loves all that give thier heart to him. May the faith in your confession bring you closer to his word. I pray in jesus name that you find the love and understanding for your heart and mind.

In jesus name we pray.

A friend in Jesus

amen
 
It seems that going to work is like dropping me in a pool of fear where I am so anxious and terrified it will all go wrong again. I blame people for their spiteful glare and stare, and then I hate them as I hate myself for not being in control of becoming a loving figure to look at ... one that inspires loving smiles of approval I so desperately need in order to be happy.

Lying to myself saying that it does not (should not) matter whether people love me or not is of no help. Over and over again such diligently enforced belief will be brought to the painful recognition that I really so much need love and affection.

I need to change my ways, but of my own power it has been proven that I can't. My prayer request is that I NOW surrender my will entirely and wholeheartedly to God. May He accept my plea and transform my mind and the way I think by the power of His will, not mine.

Thank you.

"The LORD thy God in the midst of thee is mighty; he will save, he will rejoice over thee with joy; he will comfort you in his love, he will rejoice over you with singing. I will gather them that are sorrowful for the solemn assembly, who are of thee, to whom the reproach of it was a burden. Behold, at that time I will undo all that afflict thee: and I will save her that halteth, and gather her that was driven out; and I will get them the praise and fame in every land where they have been put to shame.

At that time will I bring you again, even in the time that I gather you: for I will make you a name and a praise among all people of the earth, when I turn back your captivity before your eyes, saith the LORD." Zephaniah 3:17-20

Amen
 
"The LORD thy God in the midst of thee is mighty; he will save, he will rejoice over thee with joy; he will comfort you in his love, he will rejoice over you with singing. I will gather them that are sorrowful for the solemn assembly, who are of thee, to whom the reproach of it was a burden. Behold, at that time I will undo all that afflict thee: and I will save her that halteth, and gather her that was driven out; and I will get them the praise and fame in every land where they have been put to shame.

At that time will I bring you again, even in the time that I gather you: for I will make you a name and a praise among all people of the earth, when I turn back your captivity before your eyes, saith the LORD." Zephaniah 3:17-20

Amen
thank you I Needed those words thank you
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there quite refreshing I really feel better!
 
Father God I ask in the precious name of our LORD and Savior that you grant my brother's request, that you give him a soft heart to surrender to your will & not his own. To YOU be all the glory for his changed and renewed heart! I thank you so very much & I pray this in Jesus name, AMEN.
 
Praying to have respect and love for the Lord and others including yourself and praying you devote your life to Lord. Amen.
 
My Dear Child,

You may not know me, but I know everything about you

...Psalm 139:1

I know when you sit down and when you rise up

...Psalm 139:2

I am familiar with all your ways

...Psalm 139:3

Even the very hairs on your head are numbered

...Matthew 10:29-31

For you were made in my image

...Genesis 1:27

In me you live and move and have your being

...Acts 17:28

For you are my offspring

...Acts 17:28

I knew you even before you were conceived

...Jeremiah 1:4-5

I chose you when I planned creation

...Ephesians 1:11-12

You were not a mistake, for all your days are written in my book

...Psalm 139:15-16

I determined the exact time of your birth and where you would live

...Acts 17:26

You are fearfully and wonderfully made

...Psalm 139:14

I knit you together in your mother's womb

...Psalm 139:13

And brought you forth on the day you were born

...Psalm 71:6

I have been misrepresented by those who don't know me

...John 8:41-44

I am not distant and angry, but am the complete expression of love

...1 John 4:16

And it is my desire to lavish my love on you

...1 John 3:1

Simply because you are my child and I am your father

...1 John 3:1

I offer you more than your earthly father ever could

...Matthew 7:11

For I am the perfect father

...Matthew 5:48

Every good gift that you receive comes from my hand

...James 1:17

For I am your provider and I meet all your needs

...Matthew 6:31-33

My plan for your future has always been filled with hope

...Jeremiah 29:11

Because I love you with an everlasting love

...Jeremiah 31:3

My thoughts toward you are countless as the sand on the seashore ...Psalms 139:17-18

And I rejoice over you with singing

...Zephaniah 3:17

I will never stop doing good to you

...Jeremiah 32:40

For you are my treasured possession

...Exodus 19:5

I desire to establish you with all my heart and all my soul

...Jeremiah 32:41

And I want to show you great and marvelous things

...Jeremiah 33:3

If you seek me with all your heart, you will find me

...Deuteronomy 4:29

Delight in me and I will give you the desires of your heart

...Psalm 37:4

For it is I who gave you those desires

...Philippians 2:13

I am able to do more for you than you could possibly imagine

...Ephesians 3:20

For I am your greatest encourager

...2 Thessalonians 2:16-17

I am also the Father who comforts you in all your troubles

...2 Cor. 1:3-4

When you are brokenhearted, I am close to you

...Psalm 34:18

As a shepherd carries a lamb, I have carried you close to my heart

...Isaiah 40:11

One day I will wipe away every tear from your eyes

...Revelation 21:3-4

And I'll take away all the pain you have suffered on this earth

...Rev. 21:3-4

I am your Father, and I love you even as I love my son, Jesus

...John 17:23

For in Jesus, my love for you is revealed

...John 17:26

He is the exact representation of my being

...Hebrews 1:3

He came to demonstrate that I am for you, not against you

...Romans 8:31

And to tell you that I am not counting your sins

...2 Corinthians 5:18-19

Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled

...2 Corinthians 5:18-19

His death was the ultimate expression of my love for you

...1 John 4:10

I gave up everything I loved that I might gain your love

...Romans 8:31-32

If you receive the gift of my son Jesus, you receive me

...1 John 2:23

And nothing will ever separate you from my love again

...Romans 8:38-39

Come home and I'll throw the biggest party heaven has ever seen

...Luke 15:7

I have always been Father, and will always be Father

...Ephesians 3:14-15

My question is

...Will you be my child?

...John 1:12-13

I am waiting for you

...Luke 15:11-32

Love, Your Dad,

Almighty God
 
Wow. Thank you so much. I love being a Christian. I know God will repay you all.

This is amazing.

My Dear Child,

You may not know me, but I know everything about you

...Psalm 139:1

I know when you sit down and when you rise up

...Psalm 139:2

I am familiar with all your ways

...Psalm 139:3

Even the very hairs on your head are numbered

...Matthew 10:29-31

For you were made in my image

...Genesis 1:27

In me you live and move and have your being

...Acts 17:28

For you are my offspring

...Acts 17:28

I knew you even before you were conceived

...Jeremiah 1:4-5

I chose you when I planned creation

...Ephesians 1:11-12

You were not a mistake, for all your days are written in my book

...Psalm 139:15-16

I determined the exact time of your birth and where you would live

...Acts 17:26

You are fearfully and wonderfully made

...Psalm 139:14

I knit you together in your mother's womb

...Psalm 139:13

And brought you forth on the day you were born

...Psalm 71:6

I have been misrepresented by those who don't know me

...John 8:41-44

I am not distant and angry, but am the complete expression of love

...1 John 4:16

And it is my desire to lavish my love on you

...1 John 3:1

Simply because you are my child and I am your father

...1 John 3:1

I offer you more than your earthly father ever could

...Matthew 7:11

For I am the perfect father

...Matthew 5:48

Every good gift that you receive comes from my hand

...James 1:17

For I am your provider and I meet all your needs

...Matthew 6:31-33

My plan for your future has always been filled with hope

...Jeremiah 29:11

Because I love you with an everlasting love

...Jeremiah 31:3

My thoughts toward you are countless as the sand on the seashore ...Psalms 139:17-18

And I rejoice over you with singing

...Zephaniah 3:17

I will never stop doing good to you

...Jeremiah 32:40

For you are my treasured possession

...Exodus 19:5

I desire to establish you with all my heart and all my soul

...Jeremiah 32:41

And I want to show you great and marvelous things

...Jeremiah 33:3

If you seek me with all your heart, you will find me

...Deuteronomy 4:29

Delight in me and I will give you the desires of your heart

...Psalm 37:4

For it is I who gave you those desires

...Philippians 2:13

I am able to do more for you than you could possibly imagine

...Ephesians 3:20

For I am your greatest encourager

...2 Thessalonians 2:16-17

I am also the Father who comforts you in all your troubles

...2 Cor. 1:3-4

When you are brokenhearted, I am close to you

...Psalm 34:18

As a shepherd carries a lamb, I have carried you close to my heart

...Isaiah 40:11

One day I will wipe away every tear from your eyes

...Revelation 21:3-4

And I'll take away all the pain you have suffered on this earth

...Rev. 21:3-4

I am your Father, and I love you even as I love my son, Jesus

...John 17:23

For in Jesus, my love for you is revealed

...John 17:26

He is the exact representation of my being

...Hebrews 1:3

He came to demonstrate that I am for you, not against you

...Romans 8:31

And to tell you that I am not counting your sins

...2 Corinthians 5:18-19

Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled

...2 Corinthians 5:18-19

His death was the ultimate expression of my love for you

...1 John 4:10

I gave up everything I loved that I might gain your love

...Romans 8:31-32

If you receive the gift of my son Jesus, you receive me

...1 John 2:23

And nothing will ever separate you from my love again

...Romans 8:38-39

Come home and I'll throw the biggest party heaven has ever seen

...Luke 15:7

I have always been Father, and will always be Father

...Ephesians 3:14-15

My question is

...Will you be my child?

...John 1:12-13

I am waiting for you

...Luke 15:11-32

Love, Your Dad,

Almighty God
 
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