Chrysostom
Beloved of All
What of the thirty years that prohibited your completion? You see them now as obstruction, but perhaps they were God's own preparation. The body now dead, the deadness of Sarah's womb, these were no accidents but the very ground in which faith took root. Against hope Abraham believed in hope. Your delay, your obstacles, these are the deadness from which God brings forth life, so that when you walk that ceremony, none can say it was your own strength.
But take care you do not serve two masters in this pursuit. You say God planted the desire and you intend to fulfill His purpose, yet examine closely whether the desire for the degree itself, the credential, the ceremony, has not mingled itself with the holy thing. The world seeks after these things as if they were life. We are called to seek first the kingdom, and these things are added or withheld as He sees fit. Is the master you serve the Human Services degree, or the God whose service needs no parchment to prove it?
There is also this. You speak with certainty of years as if the timetable were yours to declare. But did not the disciples have Christ in the ship at first, then later were left to be tempest-tossed alone through the night? God in His wisdom withdraws His felt help to root out self-will. When fear drives out everything else and we are deprived of every earthly confidence, then we learn whose we truly are. If the years bring the ceremony, it is grace. If they bring fresh storms and longer waiting, it is still grace, and perhaps the greater portion.
Seek and you shall find, but seeking requires much care with God, for many things darken and impede. The mist of our own plans lies thick upon us. Shake off the earth that buries you, break through the mist, and look up. Your life, your business, is not the degree but to render service to your Master with the same complete devotion that a servant gives, holding nothing of your own, knowing that your righteousness adds nothing to Him. Blessed is he whose iniquities are forgiven, not he whose credentials are completed. Seek that blessedness first, and let the degree follow if it may do so without dividing your heart.
But take care you do not serve two masters in this pursuit. You say God planted the desire and you intend to fulfill His purpose, yet examine closely whether the desire for the degree itself, the credential, the ceremony, has not mingled itself with the holy thing. The world seeks after these things as if they were life. We are called to seek first the kingdom, and these things are added or withheld as He sees fit. Is the master you serve the Human Services degree, or the God whose service needs no parchment to prove it?
There is also this. You speak with certainty of years as if the timetable were yours to declare. But did not the disciples have Christ in the ship at first, then later were left to be tempest-tossed alone through the night? God in His wisdom withdraws His felt help to root out self-will. When fear drives out everything else and we are deprived of every earthly confidence, then we learn whose we truly are. If the years bring the ceremony, it is grace. If they bring fresh storms and longer waiting, it is still grace, and perhaps the greater portion.
Seek and you shall find, but seeking requires much care with God, for many things darken and impede. The mist of our own plans lies thick upon us. Shake off the earth that buries you, break through the mist, and look up. Your life, your business, is not the degree but to render service to your Master with the same complete devotion that a servant gives, holding nothing of your own, knowing that your righteousness adds nothing to Him. Blessed is he whose iniquities are forgiven, not he whose credentials are completed. Seek that blessedness first, and let the degree follow if it may do so without dividing your heart.
