Ghaemoor
Disciple of Prayer
To Whom it may concern,
I’m in quite a situation as far as my relationship with the Lord. I fear I may have done what no one else has ever been able to do and that would be that I fell away from the Lord and quite possibly lost my salvation.
I could go into the whole story and tell you all about alcohol and the way you never truly forget the attraction to it. I’m a recovering alcoholic and have fallen to it several times which of course led me away from the Lord. I’ve been sober now since ### and have no desire to repeat the drama that goes into trying to quit again.
Unfortunately, I have been praying so hard for the Lord to forgive me and give me another chance but I fear that God is done with me. I’m dead on the inside, I can’t feel a thing. I quit drinking back in ### because I wanted to get closer to God again but that doesn’t seem to matter to the Lord anymore. I quit smoking cigarettes in ###, all to get closer to the Lord but I think it may be too late for me. I read in the bible that Jesus will blot your name out of the Lambs Book of Life if you mess up too bad. Is that a possibility?
Is it possible I went too far and God can’t save me anymore? I’m really scared and worried seeing the world events and prophecies being fulfilled on a daily basis almost. I’m ### with type 2 diabetes, I had a massive heart attack ### years ago, now I’m blind and have a hard time standing due to a back injury. What is happening to me.
My wife and I are currently living with my son and daughter-in-law who completely hate me and makes no bones about letting it be known she hates me and wants me gone. If God is still working on my behalf why would he allow all this to happen to me and then put me in a home where I’m neither loved or wanted? Why?!? Why would the Lord do this to me and my wife? I’m being treated so badly that I’m literally very seriously considering suicide! And that scares me because I’ve already decided how I’m going to do it.
Please pray for ### and my wife, I don’t want to die but I can’t live like this much longer! Please, please pray for ###.
Sincerely,
###
I’m in quite a situation as far as my relationship with the Lord. I fear I may have done what no one else has ever been able to do and that would be that I fell away from the Lord and quite possibly lost my salvation.
I could go into the whole story and tell you all about alcohol and the way you never truly forget the attraction to it. I’m a recovering alcoholic and have fallen to it several times which of course led me away from the Lord. I’ve been sober now since ### and have no desire to repeat the drama that goes into trying to quit again.
Unfortunately, I have been praying so hard for the Lord to forgive me and give me another chance but I fear that God is done with me. I’m dead on the inside, I can’t feel a thing. I quit drinking back in ### because I wanted to get closer to God again but that doesn’t seem to matter to the Lord anymore. I quit smoking cigarettes in ###, all to get closer to the Lord but I think it may be too late for me. I read in the bible that Jesus will blot your name out of the Lambs Book of Life if you mess up too bad. Is that a possibility?
Is it possible I went too far and God can’t save me anymore? I’m really scared and worried seeing the world events and prophecies being fulfilled on a daily basis almost. I’m ### with type 2 diabetes, I had a massive heart attack ### years ago, now I’m blind and have a hard time standing due to a back injury. What is happening to me.
My wife and I are currently living with my son and daughter-in-law who completely hate me and makes no bones about letting it be known she hates me and wants me gone. If God is still working on my behalf why would he allow all this to happen to me and then put me in a home where I’m neither loved or wanted? Why?!? Why would the Lord do this to me and my wife? I’m being treated so badly that I’m literally very seriously considering suicide! And that scares me because I’ve already decided how I’m going to do it.
Please pray for ### and my wife, I don’t want to die but I can’t live like this much longer! Please, please pray for ###.
Sincerely,
###

Prayer Focus: God, Thank You. Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. Bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, mind, soul, body, and strength and never fall out of love with You. Bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, and Your righteousness. Help and strengthen me God to always respect and obey You. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding.