We hear the deep distress in your heart, and we want you to know that God sees your anxieties and cares for you far more than you can imagine. The Lord tells us in **1 Peter 5:7**, *"Cast all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you."* You do not need to carry this burden alone—He is with you, and He is sovereign over every detail of your life, even the things that feel overwhelming right now.
First, let us address the most important truth: your peace and security are not found in transactions, friendships, or circumstances—they are found in Christ alone. You have called upon the name of Jesus in your plea, and that is where your hope lies. **John 14:27** reminds us, *"Peace I leave with you. My peace I give to you; not as the world gives, give I to you. Don’t let your heart be troubled, neither let it be fearful."* If you have not yet surrendered your life fully to Jesus as your Lord and Savior, we urge you to do so now. There is no lasting peace apart from Him. **Acts 4:12** declares, *"There is salvation in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven that is given among men, by which we must be saved!"* If you believe in your heart that Jesus is Lord and confess Him with your mouth, you will be saved (**Romans 10:9**). If you have already done this, then cling to Him now—He is your anchor in this storm.
Now, let us speak to the specific concerns you’ve shared, beginning with the matters of purchases and transactions. We understand that financial stress and the uncertainty of orders can feel consuming, but we gently remind you that **Matthew 6:19-21** says, *"Don’t lay up treasures for yourselves on the earth, where moth and rust consume, and where thieves break in and steal; but lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust consume, and where thieves don’t break in and steal; for where your treasure is, there your heart will be also."* While it is not wrong to desire or purchase items, we encourage you to examine your heart: Are these things becoming idols? Are they causing you more anxiety than joy? If so, it may be time to step back and refocus on what truly matters—your relationship with God and the eternal perspective He calls us to.
As for the sellers on eBay and Poshmark, we pray that God would soften their hearts to respond to you with kindness and fairness. However, we also encourage you to release the grip these transactions have on your peace. **Proverbs 16:9** tells us, *"A man’s heart plans his course, but the Lord directs his steps."* If these purchases are meant to be, God will provide a way. If not, trust that He has something better for you. The same goes for your fear of ordering from Walmart again—if God is leading you to make a purchase, He will protect it. But if this fear is rooted in past trauma, we pray you would surrender it to Him. **2 Timothy 1:7** says, *"For God didn’t give us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and self-control."*
Now, let us address the deeper wound in your heart: the pain you’re feeling over your friend’s silence. It is clear this has caused you great hurt, and we want you to know that your feelings are valid. However, we must also speak truth in love. You mentioned fearing that you were "negative" at the Thanksgiving party and that you talked about things that "weren’t good." Friendship is a two-way street, and while it is painful when someone does not follow through on their word, we must also examine our own hearts. **Ephesians 4:29** says, *"Let no corrupt speech proceed out of your mouth, but only what is good for building others up as the need may be, that it may give grace to those who hear."* If your conversation was dominated by negativity or complaints, it may have been difficult for your friend to engage. This is not to condemn you, but to encourage you to seek godly communication. **Proverbs 15:1** tells us, *"A gentle answer turns away wrath, but a harsh word stirs up anger."* We pray that God would give you wisdom in your words and that He would heal any division between you and your friend.
That said, your friend’s lack of response is not entirely your responsibility. **Proverbs 18:24** warns, *"A man of many companions may be ruined, but there is a friend who sticks closer than a brother."* If this friend is not walking in faithfulness, it may be a sign to reevaluate the depth of this relationship. True friendship is marked by love, consistency, and mutual care (**1 Corinthians 13:4-7**). We pray that God would either restore this friendship in a healthy way or provide you with godly friends who will encourage you in your faith. It is not wrong to desire an apology, but we also encourage you to extend grace. **Colossians 3:13** says, *"bearing with one another, and forgiving each other, if any man has a complaint against any; even as Christ forgave you, so you also do."*
We also notice your fear of gaining weight and your stress over your appearance. Beloved, your worth is not in your body—it is in Christ. **1 Samuel 16:7** reminds us, *"Man looks at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart."* If you are struggling with body image, we pray you would see yourself as God sees you: fearfully and wonderfully made (**Psalm 139:14**). If this fear is consuming, we encourage you to seek counsel from a mature believer or a biblical counselor who can help you walk in freedom.
Lastly, we want to address the repetition in your request—it reveals a heart that is deeply anxious and seeking control. But **Philippians 4:6-7** tells us, *"In nothing be anxious, but in everything, by prayer and petition with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your thoughts in Christ Jesus."* You do not need to repeat your prayers for God to hear you. He knows your needs before you even ask (**Matthew 6:8**), and He is faithful. Instead of spiraling in fear, we encourage you to present your requests to God *once*, trust Him with the outcome, and then praise Him in advance for His goodness.
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**Our Prayer for You:**
Heavenly Father, we lift up our sister to You right now, knowing that You see her heart and every tear she has shed. Lord, she is overwhelmed by fear, anxiety, and the weight of so many uncertainties. We ask that You would wrap her in Your peace—a peace that transcends all understanding. Remind her that she is *Yours*, and that nothing can separate her from Your love (**Romans 8:38-39**).
Father, we pray for the sellers she has reached out to. If it is Your will, soften their hearts to respond with kindness and fairness. But more than that, we ask that You would free her from the grip these transactions have on her heart. Help her to trust You as her Provider, knowing that You hold all things in Your hands (**Matthew 6:25-34**). If there is idolatry or misplaced trust in these purchases, convict her and lead her to repentance. Teach her to seek first Your Kingdom, and trust that all these things will be added to her as You see fit.
Lord, we pray for the friendship that has caused her such pain. If she has spoken words that were not edifying, convict her and help her to grow in grace. If her friend has been unfaithful, we ask that You would either restore this relationship in a godly way or bring new, Christ-centered friendships into her life. Heal the wounds of rejection and silence. Remind her that even if earthly friends fail her, You never will (**Hebrews 13:5**).
Father, we rebuke the spirit of fear that has taken hold of her—fear of weight gain, fear of past traumas repeating, fear of abandonment. **2 Timothy 1:7** declares that You have not given us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and a sound mind. We pray she would walk in that truth. Break the chains of anxiety and replace them with Your perfect love, which casts out all fear (**1 John 4:18**).
Lord, we pray for her emotional and spiritual health. If she is struggling with negativity or a critical spirit, renew her mind by Your Word (**Romans 12:2**). Fill her with Your joy, which is her strength (**Nehemiah 8:10**). If there is unforgiveness or bitterness taking root, uproot it now and replace it with Your love.
Finally, Father, we pray that she would fix her eyes on Jesus, the Author and Perfecter of her faith (**Hebrews 12:2**). Help her to release the need for control and to trust You in every detail. May she find her identity in You alone, not in purchases, not in friendships, not in her appearance, but in being Your beloved child.
We ask all these things in the mighty and precious name of Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior. Amen.
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**Encouragement for You:**
Sister, we want to leave you with this: God is not surprised by any of this. He knew before you were born the struggles you would face (**Psalm 139:16**), and He has already made a way for you to overcome them (**1 Corinthians 10:13**). The enemy wants to keep you in bondage to fear and anxiety, but Jesus came to set you free (**John 8:36**).
We encourage you to spend time in God’s Word daily. **Psalm 119:105** says His Word is a lamp to our feet and a light to our path. When you feel overwhelmed, open your Bible and let His truth wash over you. Memorize scriptures that combat fear, such as **Isaiah 41:10**: *"Don’t you be afraid, for I am with you. Don’t be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you. Yes, I will help you. Yes, I will uphold you with the right hand of my righteousness."*
Also, consider fasting from social interactions or purchases for a season to refocus on God. Sometimes, stepping back from the noise helps us hear His voice more clearly.
Lastly, if you do not have a local church family, we strongly urge you to find one. **Hebrews 10:24-25** tells us not to forsake gathering together, as we are meant to encourage one another in the faith. You need the body of Christ to walk alongside you, and the body of Christ needs *you*.
You are loved, sister. Not because of what you do or don’t do, but because of who God is. Rest in that today.
