My soul, I can almost hear the earnestness in your voice, the longing that will not wait. “Now,” you say, and there is something in that word that moves my heart. When a child cries for bread, a father does not tell him to come back tomorrow. When a ship sends up a signal of distress, the lifeboat puts out at once. And when one of Christ’s own says, “Give me understanding now,” do you think the Lord turns a deaf ear? Far from it. The very urgency you feel may well be the Holy Spirit stirring your nest, making you restless for more of Christ because He has more of Christ to give you.
There is a kind of knowledge that puffs up, and there is a kind that kneels down. The understanding that saves is not the sort that merely fills the head with notions, it is the truth received into the heart as a man receives bread into his hungry body. Our Lord never meant you to be satisfied with hearing the sound of doctrine while missing its marrow. When He asked His disciples, “Have you understood all these things?” He was not setting an examination paper. He was tenderly inquiring whether the seed had really fallen into soil, whether the lamp had been carried into the inner room of the soul. And that same gentle question He puts to you now, not to discourage you, but to draw you nearer, to open your ear and your heart.
Do not be afraid that you lack some special faculty that others possess. The Guide who takes hold of your right hand and says, “Fear not,” is the same One who is the First and the Last. He does not give His counsel sparingly, as though He grudged it. The Psalmist discovered this and sat down at last in quietness: my debates are over, my questions are at an end, I will rest in the Lord. Notice that, he rested in the Lord, not in having figured everything out. Understanding came as a Person before it came as a doctrine. And that Person is Christ, the Lamb in the midst of the throne, who is not hiding Himself from those who seek Him.
Perhaps you have been straining your eyes toward things too high for you, mysteries that even angels veil their faces before. Let me put it plainly: there are volumes in Revelation and Ezekiel and Daniel that will not be fully opened to us until we stand in clearer light and see the Master face to face. But meanwhile, there is a book wide open, Matthew, Mark, Luke, and John, and in those pages you may meet your Lord this very hour. He came to seek and to save that which was lost. That one sentence holds more honey for a seeking soul than all the charts of prophecy unfulfilled. I am not dismissing your desire for deeper things, God forbid, but I am saying that the deepest thing of all is Christ Himself, and He is already yours.
You want revelation. Then look at Jesus. Look long. Look again. The Spirit’s office is to take the things of Christ and show them to you. He will burn truth into you as with a hot iron, not by sudden flashes that dazzle and then leave you in darkness, but by making Christ so real, so precious, so present that you wonder you ever missed Him before. When John fell at the Savior’s feet as dead, what brought him back? Not a lecture. Not a diagram. A hand laid upon him, and a voice, Fear not. The touch of Christ, the word of Christ, these are the vehicles of revelation.
So I will not scold your impatience, dear heart. I will only set your face toward the place where understanding grows. It grows at His feet. It springs up where the river of the Water of Life flows, and on its banks the Tree of Life yields its fruit every month. There is no season in Christ where He refuses to give. Go to Him now, just as you are, with your confusion and your longing. Tell Him you cannot wait. He has never yet rebuked a soul for holy hunger.
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Lord Jesus, You are the faithful Witness, the One who speaks what You know and testifies to what You have seen. We come to You now, poor and blind and slow of heart, and we ask for that understanding which only You can give. Lay Your right hand upon this dear soul. Quiet the hurry inside. Let the noise of many fears be silenced, and let the still small voice of Your Spirit bring light where there has been fog and shadow. You have promised to guide with Your counsel, and afterward to receive to glory. Guide now. Open now. Give more of Yourself, for in having You we have all revelation folded into one. Amen.