God bless you, Chris. So you messed up. And, And . Is it not His grace is sufficent for you. Is not His blood enough to cover your sins. Isn't Jesus enough for you. For His Blood washes away sins, our mess up, our faults, mistakes. We serve a mighty God, a powerfull God, A forgiving God, A faithfull God. I see you lack and not feeding on the word of God, that is spiritual starvation. The word of God says "people perish for a lack of wisdom, and God words gives you wisdom and understanding. Jesus says "pray to keep away from temptation. We are tempted away through our own desire and lust. Do you know I tell the Lord this, "Jesus said, deliver us from evil" I say not only to deliver me from the evil one, but DELIVER ME FROM MYSELF.
Say this prayer, Father, I give You controll of my life, I am tired, and I am a lost sheep who You came to save. I cannot save myself, I need a saviour, a deliverer, a faithful friend, healer. I tell you my needs, but a relationship goes both way, so heal my heart, heal my soul, wash me in Your blood, refesh my soul, so I can whole, so I can have a better relationship with You and others. I am not perfect, but I will love You and give you the rights to my heart. Help me now to forgive those who have offended me, those who provoke me, show me how to love them and be kind to them so that they can see You in me. And Chris You need to spend quality time with Your heavenly Father. Father and son together. You also need to be in the word, eat the word, obey the word and live the Word of God and align yourself according to the word of God. What you will be actually doing is applying the Kingdom of God principle in your life. God bless you
