Ldygmni
Disciple of Prayer
well here I am again. I posted a prayer request in June of this year to get a job. Well God came through and just like I had stated in my previous post about the jealousy from individuals who try to get me fired or mess with me happened again. My workplace tried to accuse me of embellishing my resume which I did not, I now had the burden of proof to show that I was not lying and that I indeed have the skills and college vocational training I had completed. They were cold towards me and untrusting at the drop of a hat and didn't give me the benefit of the doubt until I came in with receipts and strong credentials. I quit on the spot with class, without yelling or smacking the HR representative, she had it in for me as well as the rest of the administration girls. My faith is really shot and I honestly don't believe I will ever find work. I live in a small town in Hawaii on the Big Island where favoritism and nepotism are incredibly strong and a lot of times the wrong people end up getting the right jobs. Insecurity and jealousy are also problems as well, most women are always threatened by me wherever I go but the men in the workforce appreciate me and always think I am great, never have any problems with them. I'm tired, my soul is tired and I am super angry with God. Why would you strike me with this burden of having to struggle to feed myself and pay my bills, I hate this, I really do and right now God to me is not real. I don't believe in His promises anymore. I'm super exhausted, seems like one damn thing after another. Sometimes I wish I could die already and often pray for it. I told God if you don't have any job for me to contribute to and where I can find purpose then I don't want to be here anymore cause people make sure to let me know I am not wanted, especially in the workforce.
