Jesus_is_king
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I am now praying through the Holy Spirit, other than my daily prayers, which are already written down.
But, I still find myself using AI for bible study, like for the Greek or Hebrew word of something in the Bible.
I am struggling to do quiet time. As it's hot weather the past couple weeks, the fan has been on for most of that time & my brother has his door open, so i can hear him or the videos that he's watching. All these noises, then sometimes there's noises outside, so it's about finding the right time to listen out for His voice in quiet time. But, it's not like I can do it at night or early in the morning, as my brother has his tv on pretty much all the time. So what do I do? I do wanna get back into quiet time with God (listening out for His voice), but it seems that there's so much noise & things that stop me from being able to do so.
And the flesh is weak, so sometimes I struggle to do it even when it was quiet, because I can't get myself to sit still or I can't turn my mind off or maybe when I wanna listen out for His voice, that's when someone decides to be noisy, so it distracts me & puts me off doing it, because I need for it to be so quiet, as His voice is silent & still, I think that's right.
Also, today & last night I have found myself playing a game instead of praying, or labelling it as my prayer time, but distracted from Him & not saying much. I struggled with this before & I thought it was over, but here I am again downloading another game.
My prayer time has gone down a little, even before getting the game as of Saturday I think. How do I get back into it? I wanna stay abiding in Him, the vine.
Went to church today & felt to say something (maybe by the Holy Spirit), but it's like I chickened out of saying it because she is an elderly woman & I don't like holding others accountable. I need to work on my social skills for real. But, she basically said she doesn't read the Bible, which is what stuck out to me, as in the Thursday discussion group they said that reading the Bible 5 times a week changes your life for the better, I don't think those were the exact words, but it was something like that.
I also feel as someone who doesn't have a job & doesn't drive, I feel the pressure to do so from people at my church & I think that's what started putting me off going church in the first place, now with other things added on, so how do i deal with this in a Christ like manner? I feel the pressure to do all these things, but what if God isn't calling me to get a job, because maybe I'm supposed to be doing content creation that I don't get paid for? Because some people say we're not supposed to get paid for spreading the gospel type thing. So what do I do? Or am I supposed to listen to the people at church? But I feel like they may be speaking like that in a general sense of they're older & as I'm in the younger generation & a Christian, it's more of a job for Jesus, content creating. And the older generation don't like the idea of it, as they're not used to that. Are these people who are putting pressure on me from the devil to get me to walk away from my calling? I don't like to think that about these people as they are my church family, but could that be the case? Or how do i know if it is or isn't?
Thank you to anyone who replies or prays for me, God bless you
But, I still find myself using AI for bible study, like for the Greek or Hebrew word of something in the Bible.
I am struggling to do quiet time. As it's hot weather the past couple weeks, the fan has been on for most of that time & my brother has his door open, so i can hear him or the videos that he's watching. All these noises, then sometimes there's noises outside, so it's about finding the right time to listen out for His voice in quiet time. But, it's not like I can do it at night or early in the morning, as my brother has his tv on pretty much all the time. So what do I do? I do wanna get back into quiet time with God (listening out for His voice), but it seems that there's so much noise & things that stop me from being able to do so.
And the flesh is weak, so sometimes I struggle to do it even when it was quiet, because I can't get myself to sit still or I can't turn my mind off or maybe when I wanna listen out for His voice, that's when someone decides to be noisy, so it distracts me & puts me off doing it, because I need for it to be so quiet, as His voice is silent & still, I think that's right.
Also, today & last night I have found myself playing a game instead of praying, or labelling it as my prayer time, but distracted from Him & not saying much. I struggled with this before & I thought it was over, but here I am again downloading another game.
My prayer time has gone down a little, even before getting the game as of Saturday I think. How do I get back into it? I wanna stay abiding in Him, the vine.
Went to church today & felt to say something (maybe by the Holy Spirit), but it's like I chickened out of saying it because she is an elderly woman & I don't like holding others accountable. I need to work on my social skills for real. But, she basically said she doesn't read the Bible, which is what stuck out to me, as in the Thursday discussion group they said that reading the Bible 5 times a week changes your life for the better, I don't think those were the exact words, but it was something like that.
I also feel as someone who doesn't have a job & doesn't drive, I feel the pressure to do so from people at my church & I think that's what started putting me off going church in the first place, now with other things added on, so how do i deal with this in a Christ like manner? I feel the pressure to do all these things, but what if God isn't calling me to get a job, because maybe I'm supposed to be doing content creation that I don't get paid for? Because some people say we're not supposed to get paid for spreading the gospel type thing. So what do I do? Or am I supposed to listen to the people at church? But I feel like they may be speaking like that in a general sense of they're older & as I'm in the younger generation & a Christian, it's more of a job for Jesus, content creating. And the older generation don't like the idea of it, as they're not used to that. Are these people who are putting pressure on me from the devil to get me to walk away from my calling? I don't like to think that about these people as they are my church family, but could that be the case? Or how do i know if it is or isn't?
Thank you to anyone who replies or prays for me, God bless you

Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have.

