We understand the deep pain and struggle you’re carrying, and we want you to know that your desire to forgive and find healing is a godly one. Forgiveness is not a feeling but an act of obedience to Christ, who commands us to forgive as we have been forgiven (Ephesians 4:32). The weight of bitterness and unresolved anger can feel overwhelming, but Jesus is ready to lift that burden from you if you surrender it to Him. Likewise, anxiety and psychosis are real battles, but they are not beyond God’s power to heal or sustain you through. You are not alone in this—He is with you, and His Word is a lamp to your feet.
Let’s begin with forgiveness. Jesus teaches us in Matthew 6:14-15, *"For if you forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you don’t forgive men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses."* This is not a suggestion but a command tied to our own forgiveness. Forgiving from the heart doesn’t mean what was done to you was okay; it means you release the debt to God, trusting Him to be the just Judge. Start by praying for your mother and accusers, asking God to bless them (Matthew 5:44). This may feel impossible at first, but the Holy Spirit will empower you as you take steps of obedience.
For anxiety and psychosis, cast your cares on the Lord, for He cares for you (1 Peter 5:7). Philippians 4:6-7 says, *"In nothing be anxious, but in everything, by prayer and petition with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your thoughts in Christ Jesus."* God’s peace is not the absence of trouble but His presence in the midst of it. If you’re not already, we encourage you to seek godly counsel—whether through a pastor, biblical counselor, or a trusted believer—who can walk with you in this season. Medication or medical help is not unspiritual; God often uses such means to bring healing.
As for Psalms, here are a few to start with:
- **Psalm 23**: A reminder that the Lord is your shepherd, leading you beside still waters and restoring your soul, even in the valley of shadow.
- **Psalm 34**: *"The Lord is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit."* (v. 18). This Psalm is a balm for fear and distress.
- **Psalm 51**: A prayer of repentance and renewal, asking God to create in you a clean heart. Forgiveness often starts with our own repentance before God.
- **Psalm 91**: A powerful declaration of God’s protection and refuge in times of trouble. *"You will not be afraid of the terror by night, nor of the arrow that flies by day..."* (v. 5).
- **Psalm 139**: A reminder that God knows you intimately, even the depths of your pain, and He is with you always.
If you don’t know where to start in your Bible, begin with the Gospel of John to remind yourself of who Jesus is and what He has done for you. The more you know Him, the more you’ll trust Him with your pain. Also, consider reading a Proverb a day—there are 31, so it aligns well with the months—for wisdom and guidance.
Let’s pray together for you:
Heavenly Father, we lift up Your child to You, knowing that You see every tear, every wound, and every fear they carry. Lord, we ask that You would work in their heart by the power of Your Holy Spirit to release forgiveness toward their mother and accusers. Help them to see these individuals through Your eyes, not excusing sin but choosing to trust You for justice and healing. Break the chains of bitterness and replace them with Your love, which covers a multitude of sins.
Father, we also ask for Your healing touch on their mind and emotions. You are the God who calms storms, and we pray You would speak peace to the chaos within them. Rebuke every spirit of anxiety and fear, and let Your perfect love cast out all torment. If there are medical or practical steps they need to take, guide them to the right people and resources. Surround them with Your presence so they know they are not alone.
Lord, we pray they would find comfort in Your Word, that it would be a lamp to their feet and a light to their path. Open their eyes to see the hope and future You have for them (Jeremiah 29:11). Give them the strength to take one step at a time, trusting You with each one.
Finally, Father, we ask that You would draw them closer to Yourself. Let them experience the depth of Your love and the reality of Your promises. May they find their identity and security in Christ alone, knowing that nothing can separate them from Your love (Romans 8:38-39).
We pray all this in the mighty and precious name of Jesus, who bore our sins and our sorrows on the cross. It is only through Him that we have access to Your throne, and it is in His name we find salvation, healing, and hope. Amen.
One last encouragement: Forgiveness and healing are processes, not instant fixes. Be patient with yourself, but don’t give up. Keep seeking God daily, even when it feels like nothing is changing. He is faithful, and He will complete the work He has started in you (Philippians 1:6). If you stumble, get back up and keep pressing into Him. You are loved more than you know.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. God bless me to prosper, walk in excellent health, and never stop growing in the love, grace, and knowledge of Christ Jesus. God bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, mind, soul, body, and strength and never fall out of love with You. Bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, Your righteousness, and to always respect and obey You. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding.
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