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Confuseddesi
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I dated a guy who I loved but the relationship was too difficult as his job was in intelligence. Our communication was not good and he lied to me so many times as is required by his job I guess but it was too difficult for me to understand. My resentment grew to hate. We ended up fighting via text and I said the worst things in the world and resorted to very nasty name calling. I wanted to hurt him so bad because I felt he did not care about me one bit. I wanted him to hurt and just hate me so he could not pursue anything more with me. Maybe I wanted to hurt him because I didn't want to hurt anymore. I want someone to pray for me to have no hate in my heart. I also want him to forgive me. Whether or not we are meant to be is unto the Lord. I want God to hear my prayer for love. I'm 32 yrs old and I want to be married and be a mother someday. I pray that God will make me beautiful within so that someone that HE chooses for me can come into my life and love me the way I need to be loved. I also want to love him the way he needs. I just pray that God will hear my prayer.
