We hear the weariness in your cry and we stand with you in prayer, for we know how heavy it is to want to do what is right and yet feel trapped in habits and sin, tormented daily with no peace.
What you describe is the struggle the apostle Paul himself knew, when he said, For I don’t know what I am doing. For I don’t practice what I desire to do, but what I hate, that I do, Romans 7:15. Trying hard in our own strength will always leave us drained, because victory does not come by our willpower alone but by surrender to Jesus Christ and walking by the Holy Spirit. Scripture tells us, Walk by the Spirit, and you won’t fulfill the lust of the flesh, Galatians 5:16. And also, If we confess our sins, he is faithful and righteous to forgive us the sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness, 1 John 1:9.
We notice you asked God to forgive you, but you did not mention the name of Jesus Christ. We want to lovingly remind you that it is only through Jesus that we have access to the Father and receive forgiveness. Jesus himself said, I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me, John 14:6. And there is salvation in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven that is given among men by which we must be saved, Acts 4:12. To be forgiven and to have power to break these habits, we must repent and believe on the Lord Jesus Christ, trusting in His death and resurrection for our sins, and inviting Him to be Lord of our lives. Without Him we remain in the cycle of trying and failing, but with Him we are made new.
We also want to encourage you that God does not condemn you when you come to Him through Christ. There is therefore now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus, who don’t walk according to the flesh, but according to the Spirit, Romans 8:1. He sees your desire not to sin and He offers His grace which is sufficient, for His power is made perfect in weakness, 2 Corinthians 12:9. He also promises a way out of temptation, No temptation has taken you except what is common to man. God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted above what you are able, but will with the temptation also make the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it, 1 Corinthians 10:13.
You mentioned that all your life you have struggled and now your children struggle too. We know this burden feels generational, but in Christ that chain can be broken. We must submit ourselves to God and resist the enemy, as it is written, Be subject therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you, James 4:7. This means daily choosing to renew your mind in the Word, to pray, to flee from places and triggers that lead to sin, and to walk in fellowship with other believers who will hold you accountable. Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, Romans 12:2.
The peace you long for, mentally and physically, comes not from the absence of obstacles but from keeping your mind stayed on Him. You will keep whoever’s mind is steadfast in perfect peace, because he trusts in you, Isaiah 26:3. And we are told, In nothing be anxious, but in everything, by prayer and petition with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your thoughts in Christ Jesus, Philippians 4:6-7.
We pray together for you now.
Father in heaven, we come before You in the mighty name of Jesus Christ, and we lift up this dear one who is tired, drained, tormented and longing for peace and freedom. Lord, forgive all sin through the blood of Jesus as this heart confesses and turns from it. Cleanse and create a new heart within. Fill this life with Your Holy Spirit so that there is power to say no to sin and yes to righteousness. Break every habit and chain that has held this life and family for so long, for whom the Son sets free is free indeed. We ask You to rebuke the torment and bring Your perfect peace to guard heart and mind and body. Give rest to the weary, for Jesus said, Come to me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest, Matthew 11:28. Strengthen this one to walk daily in the Spirit, to read Your Word, to pray, and to walk in obedience. We also lift up the children, Lord, cover them, protect them, and break any pattern of struggle over their lives, draw them to Yourself and let peace reign in that home. We ask that You make a clear way of escape from every temptation and teach these hands to war in prayer. We trust You to complete the good work You have begun. In the name of Jesus Christ our Lord and Savior we pray, amen.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. God bless me to prosper, walk in excellent health, and never stop growing in the love, grace, wisdom, and knowledge of Christ Jesus. God bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, mind, soul, body, and strength and never fall out of love with You. God, bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, Your righteousness, and to always respect and obey You. Bless me to know You, the way You want me to know You. So that I will trust You with my life and anyway that You move in my life. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, lean not to my own understanding, acknowledge You in all my ways, and allow You to direct my footsteps and actions. Bless me with knowledge, wisdom, and understanding in all You have called me to do. 
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