gascav
Servant of All
Father i thank you for this life. It is a precious gift that you have given us so freely, that you died up on that cross so that a sinner like me may be redeemed and be justified by grace through faith to enter your kingdom, to enter the rest of God. I admit that i am a sinner, and my life has lost a lot of sense because i wasted it doing things as led by satan. I have used my own body as a source of fleshly pleasure, carnal and misdirected. I have not taken good care of my body and now i have all sorts of deficiencies and defects. Father i have simply failed because i just went out and lived without knowing the purpose you have created ne. Here i an now as a young 19 year old man, a university medical student, i lost my father, i have a mother and two sisters, i am gifted in singing and great examination skills. Father i am in a state that only you can help me with. I really need your purpose for me to be fulfilled in my life. I dont want it to be centered around me, you know the reason why i am here. I want tobe used for your purpose and i really do not mind i have to lose everything i have, no matter how much it hurts i am willing to start all over. I have been trying hard to move mountains, to do the impossible with my own worn out, tired and consumed flesh. So many times i am even asking myself how is it possible for one to memorize all this stuff. The truth i dont even know if it is the right path for me. But lord i really need you. In this moment i surrender everything to you. I am tired of trying to lead myself and involve you in the part of making the big things happen. I need you to be my everything. I may study the entire year 24/7 and still it will not do me any good because it is not directed by you and i could be studying the things that will not even help me. Father my plea is for you to put direction and your 100% guidance into this life of mine. I may study but i can never study enough, i can never make a good doctor or whatever you want me to be without you. I hunger to know you and live by you, with your guidance and strengthening. Even if i may be considered a failure by the world. It does not matter me. I want to be humble and willing to walk in your truth and according to your purpose. As it said in the song i listened to. Sonda me senor. Use me because that is why you made me. You made me for your own purpose. I cast everything in your care because you care for me. I pray for everything in the name of Jesus Christ. Lord and Savior. Amen
