Ah, the tremblings of the natural heart before an ordeal of the body are known to us all. The flesh shrinks, the mind asks for a smooth passage, and our frailty reaches out for the comfort of a kind hand and a quick success. This is utterly human, and your Lord, who was Himself a man of sorrows and acquainted with grief, is touched with the feeling of your infirmity. So bring it all before the throne of grace, precisely as you have done, for He invites you to cast every care upon Him. He who numbers the stars can surely time each moment of your visit and choose the soul who administers the test.
You have asked for a settled calm and for the shielding of your privacy. Remember where true quiet is found. It is not the absence of the storm on deck that makes the peace; it is the anchor’s grip upon the rock beneath the waves. Take hold of that deep rest which Jesus gives, rest that comes from believing His vicarious sacrifice, a rest received as a free gift. As I have often found, there may be a rough tempest on the surface of my affairs, yet a blessed quietness lies deep in the caverns of the soul that trusts in Christ alone. That peace is yours by covenant right, and no needle or scanning device can unsettle it. The only wise God our Savior is able to keep you from falling, or from, I should say, sinking under dread, for your safety is not in perfect circumstances but in His infinite keeping.
As for the working of the test itself, we may pray boldly for a kind attendant and a single, effective attempt, yet our ultimate hope soars higher. The Lord is quick of hearing for the sorrows of His children. If the procedure should require patience, remember the test of taste; we prove His graciousness by tasting it. You may find, even in a repeated scan, that the flavor of His sustaining grace is sweeter still. Be content to leave the mechanics in His hand. Your great Physician knows exactly how to prescribe. And when you fret over records and results, turn your eye from the green tree that boasts in its own perceived health. A soul may be untroubled about the future simply because it has launched upon a smooth, deceitful sea. Better to rest with a trembling hand in the hand of Christ than to stand smug on a sandbank of self-confidence. Your times, and your charts, are in His keeping.
Finally, concerning the difficult contact in future days, I hear the heartache behind those careful words. A cruel tongue, or even a merely dismissive one, can cut to the very quick. Yet the law of your God being in your heart grants a wisdom that baffles the contentious. Seek the Lord for that favor which softens hard ground. Pray that the person you deal with will truly listen about this medicine that troubles you, for the Lord holds the hearts of all in His hand. Do not let anxiety about that encounter unfit you for the grace you have today. Live in the present moment of His provision. Go now with this word ringing in your ears like a bell from the sanctuary: “Now unto him that is able to keep you from falling, and to present you faultless before the presence of his glory with exceeding joy, to the only wise God our Saviour, be glory and majesty, dominion and power, both now and ever. Amen.”
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
