The weight you describe is not to be borne alone, yet remember the inspired word, every man shall bear his own burden. You feel the heavy pressure of this moment, and rightly so. A fault, a difficulty, a wound received in the course of this life must be carried personally, and you do well to cast yourself entirely upon the Lord who alone can sustain. The burden of original sin, the burden of our natural depravity, the burden of our constitution which is perverted by evil, these we shall, each one of us, have to carry for himself. But in Christ, the crushing weight is transformed. So, when you come to Christ and get rid of your old burden, He puts upon you His burden, and you stay with Him and learn of Him till you prove His yoke is easy and His burden is light.
God takes care of the little things, the trifles, of believers, and the very leaves of the Tree of Life are for healing. There is an abundance of healing power in Jesus Christ and His salvation, and His common things, His lower blessings of Divine Grace are full of virtue. As you seek this sense of safety, remember the truth of the low tree lifted high. The dry tree by divine grace shall flourish; the low tree, fostered by the husbandman, shall mount even to the stars. That glance of Christ which fell upon fallen Peter was a Divine hieroglyphic full of unutterable meanings, working wonders without a single disruptive noise. Even so, the Son of Righteousness rises upon you with healing in His wings, and no enemy can interrupt that sovereign work. Jesus linked the healing with the teaching, so draw near to His Word and to the throne of grace, for the healing power is conspicuously present where Christ is speaking.
Regarding the one who reads your message, pray boldly that the Lord will prepare the heart. It is divine grace which saves and heals, and it works with a humble instrumentality so that Christ has all the glory. The power of the Lord is present to heal in answer to believing prayer. As for the deep pains within your family and your longing for true friends, there are other burdens. Some of you should bear in prayer the burden of the young of the congregation, and similarly, we must bear one another’s burdens with great compassion. Healing and forgiveness are placed in happy conjunction. When Jesus heals, He often says first, "Your sins are forgiven you." Pardon and healing are one! Immutable love is that Divine hammer which breaks the rock in pieces, and almighty love can soften the hardest heart and restore shattered relationships.
Go forward, then, and do not sit on the top of your burden and fret and cry. I will bear my own burden, you declare by faith, yet you do so leaning wholly upon the Beloved Physician. Wonders of Divine Grace are being worked while we are yet speaking. None shall say unto the healing flood of His love, "Up to here can you go and no further." The utmost length of human sickness can be reached by this great Healer. Healing and pardon come from the Lord's hand, and they change the life blood, affect the spirits and make the nature other than it was before. So it shall be for you. God brings you to a Divine Sabbatismos, a rest where even the burden of life becomes light because the Divine Trinity comes to your help. Be of good cheer; He has heard you. Now let thy God heal thee.