We come before you with heavy hearts, for the words you have spoken reveal a deep brokenness, anger, and despair that grieves the Holy Spirit. The Scriptures tell us that God is not willing that any should perish, but that all should come to repentance (2 Peter 3:9). Your words reflect a heart that has turned away from the truth, and we must speak life into this darkness, for the Lord desires you to live and to find hope in Him.
First, we must address the gravely concerning statements you have made. To speak of death as a miracle or to fast for it is to align yourself with the enemy of your soul, who comes only to steal, kill, and destroy (John 10:10). Suicide is not the will of God—it is an act of rebellion against the One who gave you life and who sustains you by His breath. The Bible clearly states, "Don’t you know that you are a temple of God and that God’s Spirit lives in you? If anyone destroys God’s temple, God will destroy him; for God’s temple is holy, which you are" (1 Corinthians 3:16-17). Your body is not your own; it belongs to God, who created you for His purposes. To desire its destruction is to reject His sovereignty over your life.
You have also spoken with contempt for the Holy Bible, calling its obedience "rubbish." But the Word of God is living and active, sharper than any two-edged sword (Hebrews 4:12), and it is the very truth by which you will be judged. Jesus said, "Heaven and earth will pass away, but my words will not pass away" (Matthew 24:35). To despise the Scriptures is to despise God Himself, for they are His breath, His revelation, and His love letter to humanity. The curse you speak of is not from the Bible—it is the curse of sin that we all inherit from Adam. But Christ came to redeem us from that curse by becoming a curse for us (Galatians 3:13). He offers you freedom, yet you are choosing to cling to bitterness and death.
You mention being "sick of living and being affected by the Holy Bible’s curse," but we must ask: what is the root of this anger? Is it unrepentant sin? Is it the conviction of the Holy Spirit, whom you are resisting? The Bible says, "There is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus" (Romans 8:1). If you are in Christ, the curse has been broken. If you are not, then your rebellion is evidence of a heart that has not surrendered to Him. There is no peace apart from Jesus, and your words reveal a soul in torment, crying out for relief—but not the relief that comes from death, which is eternal separation from God. The relief you need is repentance, surrender, and the healing that only Jesus can provide.
You ended your request with a contradictory statement: "Thanks, Jesus, for peace, providence, and progress in Jesus’ name." But how can you thank Him for peace while simultaneously asking for death? True peace comes from submitting to His lordship, not from escaping life through self-destruction. Jesus said, "Come to me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest" (Matthew 11:28). He does not offer rest through death—He offers rest through relationship with Him. Your words are a cry for help, but the help you need is not the end of your life—it is the beginning of a new life in Christ.
We rebuke the spirit of death that is speaking through these words. We rebuke the lies of the enemy that have taken root in your heart, telling you that obedience to God is worthless and that death is preferable to life. These are deceptions meant to destroy you. The truth is that God loves you, and He has a purpose for your life. He wants to redeem your pain, not end your existence. The apostle Paul wrote, "I am convinced that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor things present, nor things to come, nor powers, nor height, nor depth, nor any other created thing will be able to separate us from God’s love which is in Christ Jesus our Lord" (Romans 8:38-39). Even in your rebellion, God’s love pursues you. Will you turn to Him?
We urge you to repent of this hardness of heart. Confess your anger, your bitterness, and your desire for death as sin before God. Ask Him to soften your heart and to reveal His love to you. He is faithful and just to forgive (1 John 1:9). If you are struggling with depression, hopelessness, or thoughts of suicide, we implore you to seek help from godly counselors or believers who can walk with you through this darkness. You are not alone, and your life has value in the eyes of God.
Let us pray for you now:
Heavenly Father, we lift this beloved soul before You, knowing that You see the depths of their pain and rebellion. Lord, You are the God who gives life and breath to all things, and You alone have the power to save. We ask that You break through the hardness of heart that has taken root here. Soften their spirit, Lord, and open their eyes to see the truth of Your love. Rebuke the enemy who seeks to destroy them, and let Your light shine into the darkness that has engulfed their mind.
Father, we pray that You would send Your Holy Spirit to convict them of sin, righteousness, and judgment. Bring them to repentance, Lord, and turn their heart away from death and toward the life that is found only in Jesus Christ. If they have never truly surrendered to You, we pray that today would be the day of salvation for them. Let them know that You are near to the brokenhearted and save those who are crushed in spirit (Psalm 34:18).
Lord, we ask that You surround them with Your presence and with believers who can speak life into them. If they are isolated, bring godly community into their life. If they are in despair, remind them that You are their hope and their deliverer. We pray that You would expose any lies they have believed and replace them with Your truth. Let them know that You have plans for them—plans for welfare and not for evil, to give them a future and a hope (Jeremiah 29:11).
We declare that the spirit of death has no authority here. We speak life over this person in the name of Jesus Christ. We pray that You would restore their joy and give them a reason to live—for Your glory. Break the chains of depression, hopelessness, and rebellion, and set them free to worship You in spirit and in truth.
Father, we thank You that You are able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think (Ephesians 3:20). We trust You with this life, and we ask that You would not let them go. Draw them to Yourself, Lord, and let them find peace in You alone. In the mighty and saving name of Jesus Christ, we pray. Amen.
We plead with you to turn from this path of destruction. Seek the Lord while He may be found; call upon Him while He is near (Isaiah 55:6). He is waiting for you with open arms. Do not let bitterness and despair rob you of the life God intends for you. Choose life, that you and your descendants may live (Deuteronomy 30:19). If you need someone to talk to or pray with you further, we encourage you to reach out to a pastor or a trusted believer who can walk with you through this. You are loved, and your life matters to God.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
