Victoria209h
Humble Prayer Partner
I'm not sure if I’m experiencing a spiritual attack along with just the things that happen in a fallen world. Still, here is what I'm going through: I ran out of one of my diabetic medications, and over the weekend, I felt symptoms that made me worry I was having chest pain, and because I’m a type diabetic, I sensed something was wrong with me.
I believe it was withdrawal from my diabetes medication. Since we no longer have health insurance because we couldn’t afford it, I ended up in the hospital even though I didn’t want to go. I also have high blood pressure. The doctors told me my blood sugars weren’t too bad and gave me the medication I needed once I was back home. Still, I wasn’t feeling right, and I caught a virus, possibly a head cold. I’ve had a persistent headache for three days, along with a slight cough and sore throat. I feel very fatigued.
I’m also feeling stressed because we are about $###,### behind on our mortgage and owe around $###,### to the IRS for taxes, and I've been trying to get a hold of the tax advocacy line. Once I finally got through after several attempts and hang-ups, they said I needed to be transferred to the balance due department. Then, after being hung up on by them, I just figured I’ll try tomorrow cause I feel so tired. I’m also helping my oldest daughter apply for SSI due to her disabilities. I recently learned that because I am the IHSS provider for all three of my children, our family might qualify for CalFresh. I submitted an emergency application and am waiting to hear from them. At first, it seems like we make too much to qualify, but since IHSS is non-taxable, it doesn't count as income, so we’re under the limit. I’ve been trying to get help with our taxes today and spent the whole day on the phone with them. I’m also working on a modification to our home to reduce what we owe—possibly even adding the outstanding balance to the end of our loan.
I pray that this can happen. I also pray the IRS will set up a temporary pause and payment plan so we won't keep being fined and can pay the bill once we’re able. The stress is intense because my husband is a long-haul truck driver, and I’m here managing everything alone. He will return around 10 June. I feel really overwhelmed because I’m sick and trying to manage my blood sugar and blood pressure while handling so much. Please pray for me. I truly believe Jesus loves me and is caring for my children and me and my husband because I’m still here and safe, but I feel so worn out and low. I keep trying to read God’s word, and Scripture keeps coming to mind—Romans 8:28, “for God works all things together for the good of those who love him and are called according to his purpose.”
I hold onto the hope that everything I’m going through has a purpose for my good. Still, I’m so tired of this constant struggle. I know I don’t always feel this way; I realize it’s just because I’m sick that I feel worse. I’m really exhausted. It’s like I put so much effort into everything, especially caring for my children, that I wish I could take a little break. I would love to have a moment of peace. Please pray for me. I really don’t like feeling so overwhelmed. I know Jesus Christ is with me. I know he’s taking care of me even if I can’t see it. I know Jesus loves my children and our family, and I know he doesn’t want me feeling like this. Please pray for my heavenly father to give me the peace I need and the strength and the energy that I need to endure all that’s going on in my life. Still, to continue to be the wife I need to be as a mother, I need to be to my children and also to the people around me. The people with special needs that I work with. I had to cancel on one of them this week because I was just too sick.
I believe it was withdrawal from my diabetes medication. Since we no longer have health insurance because we couldn’t afford it, I ended up in the hospital even though I didn’t want to go. I also have high blood pressure. The doctors told me my blood sugars weren’t too bad and gave me the medication I needed once I was back home. Still, I wasn’t feeling right, and I caught a virus, possibly a head cold. I’ve had a persistent headache for three days, along with a slight cough and sore throat. I feel very fatigued.
I’m also feeling stressed because we are about $###,### behind on our mortgage and owe around $###,### to the IRS for taxes, and I've been trying to get a hold of the tax advocacy line. Once I finally got through after several attempts and hang-ups, they said I needed to be transferred to the balance due department. Then, after being hung up on by them, I just figured I’ll try tomorrow cause I feel so tired. I’m also helping my oldest daughter apply for SSI due to her disabilities. I recently learned that because I am the IHSS provider for all three of my children, our family might qualify for CalFresh. I submitted an emergency application and am waiting to hear from them. At first, it seems like we make too much to qualify, but since IHSS is non-taxable, it doesn't count as income, so we’re under the limit. I’ve been trying to get help with our taxes today and spent the whole day on the phone with them. I’m also working on a modification to our home to reduce what we owe—possibly even adding the outstanding balance to the end of our loan.
I pray that this can happen. I also pray the IRS will set up a temporary pause and payment plan so we won't keep being fined and can pay the bill once we’re able. The stress is intense because my husband is a long-haul truck driver, and I’m here managing everything alone. He will return around 10 June. I feel really overwhelmed because I’m sick and trying to manage my blood sugar and blood pressure while handling so much. Please pray for me. I truly believe Jesus loves me and is caring for my children and me and my husband because I’m still here and safe, but I feel so worn out and low. I keep trying to read God’s word, and Scripture keeps coming to mind—Romans 8:28, “for God works all things together for the good of those who love him and are called according to his purpose.”
I hold onto the hope that everything I’m going through has a purpose for my good. Still, I’m so tired of this constant struggle. I know I don’t always feel this way; I realize it’s just because I’m sick that I feel worse. I’m really exhausted. It’s like I put so much effort into everything, especially caring for my children, that I wish I could take a little break. I would love to have a moment of peace. Please pray for me. I really don’t like feeling so overwhelmed. I know Jesus Christ is with me. I know he’s taking care of me even if I can’t see it. I know Jesus loves my children and our family, and I know he doesn’t want me feeling like this. Please pray for my heavenly father to give me the peace I need and the strength and the energy that I need to endure all that’s going on in my life. Still, to continue to be the wife I need to be as a mother, I need to be to my children and also to the people around me. The people with special needs that I work with. I had to cancel on one of them this week because I was just too sick.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
