Your tears have not been hidden from the Lord, and your broken heart is known to Him who is full of compassion. To be insulted before your colleagues, to labour faithfully and yet to be reproached, is a bitter trial. It is not strange that you could not restrain your weeping, for the wound of shame cut deep.
Remember that our blessed Lord Himself walked in the valley of humiliation. Being found in fashion as a man, He humbled Himself, and He knows the sting of scorn and contempt. He is able to sympathize with you, and to sustain you in this hour.
Human strength, even at its best, will spend itself and fail. All strength apart from God is derived strength and must come to an end. But the promise stands sure, They that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength. When there remains no strength in you, nor any ability of any kind, then is the time to fling yourself upon the divine strength and lay hold upon it, for He giveth power to the faint and to them that have no might He increaseth strength.
You have prayed well for patience, for knowledge and understanding. In some of His people this strength from God takes the form of great patience. You have heard of the patience of Job, the patience of a man like ourselves, imperfect and full of infirmity, yet upheld under sore trial. This is not the patience of one who cannot feel, but the patience of a child who believes in his Father's love, the patience which the Scriptures themselves work in us as we meditate and pray. God Himself has said, I will strengthen them, and therefore it will be fitly infused and wisely balanced.
Hear also this word for your daily labour and for your career which you have surrendered into His mighty hands, As thy days, so shall thy strength be. You shall have strength not laid by for tomorrow, but strength sufficient for this day. A day of little service will have little strength, but a day that requires you to stand firm under insult and difficulty shall have strength proportioned to the need. He gives strength just where it is needed and of that peculiar kind which the trial demands. And know this, that God is the glory of your strength, and the joy of the Lord is your strength. When the heart finds its joy in Him, it grows quiet and steadies itself to endure and to do its duty.
Let us pray for you. O Lord God, who art the Author of all strength, look upon this Thy servant whose heart is broken. Thou hast seen the insult and the tears. Renew strength to one who waits upon Thee. Grant divine patience under provocation, and knowledge and understanding to overcome every challenge. Give as the day, so the strength, and let Thy joy be a well of strength within. Take this career into Thy wise and mighty hands, order its steps, and keep this soul near to Christ who was humbled for us. Lift up the head that is now bowed down, and cause faith to triumph over fear and sorrow. In Jesus name we ask it, Amen.