I can imagine that you would feel overwhelmed in our endeavors and withe all yor dealing with. I was wondering if you are involved in an active, caring church. That could be a great help and comfort to you. There are college classes in some churches too.
Meanwhile, I am praying that you do feel the peace of the Lord---the peace that transcend all understanding.
I pray His loving arms around you, comforting you. I pray that His love just radiates through you and causes new hope to raise-up within you, casting-out any and all fears and anxieties. I pray the Lord takes the grief you are feeling from losing your parents and turns it into joy as you recall wonderful times with and things about your parents. May you immerse yourself in the Word of God...seeking His wisdom and guidance that He promises to give to all those who are His---those who are His that ask and don't doubt---who expect Him to, without doubt, to give them such direction and wisdom. In Jesus Name we pray and thank You and look forward to the praise report that we are expecting to come. Amen!