Jennthebeliever
Disciple of Prayer
My husband and i are together for 20 year and married for 18 years. We have a teenage son and daughter. My husband constant cheating makes me feel drown in sad emotion every day. He is cheating on me way before we got married. He doesn't seem to stop. Every year there is always one or two or more affairs. every time i found out about it, i feel devastated . The pain is so strong like the sharp sword pierce thru my heart. Be will put blame on me every time i found out about his affairs and cursing me like i am worthless.Every time is out station there will be a girl. He spend more money on these girls then on his wife and kids. I can only cry and cry and cry. I don't share my problems which anyone. I keep it all bottled up. With so much pain i numb myself with alcohol just to get some sleep. Sometimes i do pray to God to give me peace in mind and soul. I am too worn out with my husband cheating habit.But i know started to come to God in prayer more often then before. I felt calm a little. I've gone thru few christian website to help me to learn more about God and prayers. Pls pray for me to be a change person the way God want be to be and pray for my husband to stop cheating and God will turn his heart towards Him.Lord have mercy on my marriage. Amen