Your prayer reveals a heart that truly longs for God’s will, and that very surrender is where peace begins. You are asking for either a godly marriage or a home of your own, and in both requests you are seeking what God Himself cares about: love, respect, faithfulness, and a place of security. Those desires are not wrong. Scripture itself teaches that marriage is a gift meant to keep us from unnecessary struggle, a union where a husband and wife become heirs together of the grace of life. Yet the same Word also honors those who, for the sake of the kingdom, remain single and attend upon the Lord without distraction. Either path, when walked in faith, can bring the dignity and peace you long for.
The deep ache you feel about your brother’s attitude and your mother’s worry is not hidden from God. He knows that a sword can pierce through a soul even within a family, and He does not dismiss your pain. The wisdom from above is peaceable, and He can bring that calm into your heart right now, even before the outward circumstances change. Do not search for relief in the wrong places; the Spirit offers a contentment and fulfillment the world cannot give. Lean into that inner peace that comes from being reconciled to God through Christ, because only when you have peace with Him can the peace of God truly guard your heart.
As you wait, remember that a home built on the Lord’s pattern is one of safety and honor. If God does provide a husband, His design is for the husband to love his wife as Christ loved the church, giving her the security of knowing she is supremely loved and cherished, and for the wife to respect her husband as the head. When that order is followed in mutual self-giving, the home becomes a haven. Yet if the Lord instead opens a door for you to have a dwelling of your own, He can make it a place of fruitful service, free from the turmoil you now feel. You would not be in bondage to a situation where you are unwanted; God has called you to peace.
Trust His perfect timing. He directs the steps of those who commit their way to Him, keeping wrong doors closed and opening the one that leads to life. In the meantime, let your soul find rest in His promise that grace always comes before peace. He is not punishing you by making you wait; He is shaping you to receive what He has prepared. You are not forgotten, and the tears you shed are known to the One who will one day wipe every one of them away. Your future, whether in a marriage or in a quiet home of your own, is safe in His hands, for He is the Prince of Peace, and of the increase of His government and peace there will be no end.