Saballiffe
Prayer Partner
Hello, it's me again.
I know I shouldn’t let shame keep me from updating or asking for prayer, but it feels like an ever-present boulder on my shoulders.
I still have my place and my job, so I am grateful. I still feel like I'm walking through life just numb, but I am able to get my most pressing tasks done, and for that, I am grateful.
The main things I ask for prayer for are work and court.
Update from last post: There have been multiple continuances, and it is now moving towards court. I have repeatedly sent disputes, and they close them without explanation or communication. At this point, I am hoping to find a lawyer who can either defend me in court or settle with a doable payment plan.
I have all my other debts outside of student loans either paid off or on payment plans, but all of those add up, so savings aren’t possible. The little I got back from an error on taxes, I was going to use on a mini vacation since I haven’t had one in 3 + years and need a break. But it doesn't look like it will happen. I just pray that everything works out in my favor. I would prefer it to be entirely cleared since I did everything I was supposed to for it to be removed with the original debtors due to hardship. But if not, I pray it goes to a reasonable amount I can pay off.
As for work, I’m grateful I was not laid off. But because others were, I have been given all their work. My manager is now lauding my importance but not supporting me when it comes to facilitation with others, which is needed to solve some underlying issues. This is frustrating and doesn't make sense since, in the end, it will make us all look good. I just want to do my job and not hate getting up and going to work every day. But given I came from almost 2 years unemployed, I am grateful to have a job even if most of it goes to debt.
I pray for covering, peace of mind, and easy collaboration. I need my health to be able to separate and turn stuff off once I’m home and not always be on the lookout for things at work because I’m worried about my position. The significant stressors back to back are taking a toll on my body.
I know it's a lonely place, and I know that God’s got me, but it's hard when no one else seems to understand what I am going through and tells me I should be grateful for what I do have, like that invalidates my feelings. So, I just hold it in, and it feels like I should bring nothing but problems to the Lord. I want a small piece of happiness.
I know I shouldn’t let shame keep me from updating or asking for prayer, but it feels like an ever-present boulder on my shoulders.
I still have my place and my job, so I am grateful. I still feel like I'm walking through life just numb, but I am able to get my most pressing tasks done, and for that, I am grateful.
The main things I ask for prayer for are work and court.
Update from last post: There have been multiple continuances, and it is now moving towards court. I have repeatedly sent disputes, and they close them without explanation or communication. At this point, I am hoping to find a lawyer who can either defend me in court or settle with a doable payment plan.
I have all my other debts outside of student loans either paid off or on payment plans, but all of those add up, so savings aren’t possible. The little I got back from an error on taxes, I was going to use on a mini vacation since I haven’t had one in 3 + years and need a break. But it doesn't look like it will happen. I just pray that everything works out in my favor. I would prefer it to be entirely cleared since I did everything I was supposed to for it to be removed with the original debtors due to hardship. But if not, I pray it goes to a reasonable amount I can pay off.
As for work, I’m grateful I was not laid off. But because others were, I have been given all their work. My manager is now lauding my importance but not supporting me when it comes to facilitation with others, which is needed to solve some underlying issues. This is frustrating and doesn't make sense since, in the end, it will make us all look good. I just want to do my job and not hate getting up and going to work every day. But given I came from almost 2 years unemployed, I am grateful to have a job even if most of it goes to debt.
I pray for covering, peace of mind, and easy collaboration. I need my health to be able to separate and turn stuff off once I’m home and not always be on the lookout for things at work because I’m worried about my position. The significant stressors back to back are taking a toll on my body.
I know it's a lonely place, and I know that God’s got me, but it's hard when no one else seems to understand what I am going through and tells me I should be grateful for what I do have, like that invalidates my feelings. So, I just hold it in, and it feels like I should bring nothing but problems to the Lord. I want a small piece of happiness.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
