Saballiffe
Prayer Partner
I want to start off with a praise report: I have a job and a place to live. God saved me from being unemployed and evicted. Though I have had many obstacles, one of the coworkers in my office was removed, which is a blessing when it comes to my mental space. And I thank God for all he has done, and what I know he will do for me in the future, no matter what I currently feel in the moment.
I am asking for prayer; many things are hitting me at once, and I know He can solve all my problems and care about me. Sometimes, I feel shame about laying all my problems at His feet. Though I often express my gratitude and thanks, I feel like I am constantly having issues and asking for deliverance. Not that I don't try on my own to resolve things because I do, but it's so tiring. I know I'm amid burnout, just tryin' to push through because that's all I know how to do.
I have a court case in December for a creditor suing me for a debt I cannot afford; I reached out to local legal aid, and they are counting what I am set to make at this job instead of what I have made so far. Especially when I expressed that I had only been at this job for a few months. I cannot afford to cover lawyers' fees alone, let alone that and whatever settlement the creditors will agree to.
I am already making large payments to another creditor since I agreed in good faith that I would do so when I start a job. I had/have no intention of avoiding payment with the one suing; not only are they suing me for an exorbitant amount, but the debt should have been canceled when I filled out the forms due to my circumstances, but it was mysteriously rejected. I am trying my best and fighting so hard to become stable.
I have a family member who is ill and trying to pressure me into being at their beck and call. And I seem to be the only person who realizes they aren't being completely forthcoming with the information they share. Especially since they always taught me omission is a lie, and I am trying not to have a visceral reaction to the fact they are trying to manipulate me.
My sleep and digestion are being affected by my stress, and I am starting to grind my teeth in my sleep, causing a toothache. Everything seems to be compounding while I try to stay focused and anchor myself. I know after all I've been through, I wouldn't have made it through that for no reason. I am trying to see the positive and bright things in my day.
At my job, I am constantly being told I am being held to different standards, but nothing is written down, and expectations are not expressed. They wait until I create something to then edit and shoot it down. As soon as I finish speaking, those in charge respond in a way that shows they don't listen. It is almost made to seem like I do not take the initiative or have followed through, yet I am always stuck with unique situations no one else has ever had to deal with, and I find a solution. I know I deserve better and that this will continue to take a mental toll on me, but with the current job climate, I am afraid to make any changes. I also know that certifications and education will help with how competitive it is, but I already have an issue with funds.
At this point, I don't quite know what to ask for prayer on peace of mind, direction, deliverance, peace, grace and energy. I'm not sure. I know I need a change; all of this is too heavy, and I've never felt lonelier. I know with my past of seasonal depression and the holidays coming up where, yet again, for another year, I will be alone. I need some brightness to shine through before I lose myself in darkness.
I am asking for prayer; many things are hitting me at once, and I know He can solve all my problems and care about me. Sometimes, I feel shame about laying all my problems at His feet. Though I often express my gratitude and thanks, I feel like I am constantly having issues and asking for deliverance. Not that I don't try on my own to resolve things because I do, but it's so tiring. I know I'm amid burnout, just tryin' to push through because that's all I know how to do.
I have a court case in December for a creditor suing me for a debt I cannot afford; I reached out to local legal aid, and they are counting what I am set to make at this job instead of what I have made so far. Especially when I expressed that I had only been at this job for a few months. I cannot afford to cover lawyers' fees alone, let alone that and whatever settlement the creditors will agree to.
I am already making large payments to another creditor since I agreed in good faith that I would do so when I start a job. I had/have no intention of avoiding payment with the one suing; not only are they suing me for an exorbitant amount, but the debt should have been canceled when I filled out the forms due to my circumstances, but it was mysteriously rejected. I am trying my best and fighting so hard to become stable.
I have a family member who is ill and trying to pressure me into being at their beck and call. And I seem to be the only person who realizes they aren't being completely forthcoming with the information they share. Especially since they always taught me omission is a lie, and I am trying not to have a visceral reaction to the fact they are trying to manipulate me.
My sleep and digestion are being affected by my stress, and I am starting to grind my teeth in my sleep, causing a toothache. Everything seems to be compounding while I try to stay focused and anchor myself. I know after all I've been through, I wouldn't have made it through that for no reason. I am trying to see the positive and bright things in my day.
At my job, I am constantly being told I am being held to different standards, but nothing is written down, and expectations are not expressed. They wait until I create something to then edit and shoot it down. As soon as I finish speaking, those in charge respond in a way that shows they don't listen. It is almost made to seem like I do not take the initiative or have followed through, yet I am always stuck with unique situations no one else has ever had to deal with, and I find a solution. I know I deserve better and that this will continue to take a mental toll on me, but with the current job climate, I am afraid to make any changes. I also know that certifications and education will help with how competitive it is, but I already have an issue with funds.
At this point, I don't quite know what to ask for prayer on peace of mind, direction, deliverance, peace, grace and energy. I'm not sure. I know I need a change; all of this is too heavy, and I've never felt lonelier. I know with my past of seasonal depression and the holidays coming up where, yet again, for another year, I will be alone. I need some brightness to shine through before I lose myself in darkness.

Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. Bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, soul, mind, and strength and never fall out of love with You. Bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, and Your righteousness. Help and strengthen me God to always respect and obey You. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding.