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Angelprettyboy
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Dear Lord, there are so many levels of negative's in my life. I cannot get over the fact that every aspect of living life has not only become a chore of what I try to have as a whole of beauty in living life, but it has become protective in all different mannerism. I am alone not by choice but, in fear that what I strive for in life will be given away like many things in my life have I was once and always told all my life of all great things, and now years have gone by and not one year has passed with out the exsisting event of someone or something taking from me ME LORD with healthy living being of life as I know it. I have fought it in spite of the fear in me, the anger of knowing, and watching & listening to my life be invited by others living. I just can't get over it , I just can't believe something like this can be possible, i just can't believe I have to always turn the other cheek or settle. I am so sick and tired of settling for the lowest of the lowest. Or even attack on a emotional, physical, and environmental level that it sickins me to the point of anger that I can not even define the word of disgusted. I turn to you in hope that some how I will rejuenate my life, life is a vessel of great and beyond wonderful, beautiful being.How & when can I gain back the women I really am, inspire myself to success and regain the lost belief that has been taken away from years of abuse to altar there being of life. I have had eneough. I want to write a book, travel, go back to college, get married, travel with my son, open my heart to myself with confidence & excellent surroundings of people who will not use me nor try to be me nor try to always know what I am thinking to use my time or money.I want to be connected to the elements of the flow of the world learn with my son, bless him with growth ,warmth, all and the above essentials of becoming a preppy teenager. Is there not anything in this world that can turn my life around, I am getting older I beg of a miracle are they real can they be real for me, my son & I truely deserve it.AMEN
