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Grace1
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God my heart truly breaks. I am so unhappy at home and have been for a really long while. My family is broken apart. Dad thinks he is higher than everyone in the home and probably even in the family. He doesn't communicate with his brothers when they tried, he doesn't communicate with friends, in fact he doesn't have any and doesn't want any. He's very un social. At work he is having problems with his colleagues and the money is just not enough, he has so much debt and problems so is unable to support my financially. He doesn't even talk to me at all, he often argues with us and his ways are horrible. He argues with us then does not talk to us. I don't treat anyone this way but please understand I don't want to talk to him, I don't want him in my life as he has never been a good father figure. He has not once put his arm around me or comforted me when I am sad. He has not thought well about my future especially in his ability to support me financially as he has just went and hoarded items that cost a lot of money, we do not need them nor need to use them. Everyday I go downstairs and it feels so horrible to see him on the computer of which he used to chat women up, I woke up this morning to find him debating with my mother and shouting claiming he is right. I find that some days I am able to cope but it is so hard we live in such a small house I have to share a room with my mother and we don't get along most of the time, she does not understand or respect my views and often does not realise what she does wrong and says it's all my fault but I am thankful she does forgive after a while over and over again. I don't have freedom to do what I want and my brother seems to always shout at me and annoy me and not give me any privacy. I just feel like I need a place of my own and always have done. I want to be independent and I just want an end to all of this. God please don't ignore this prayer. Please lead me not into temptation and testing and please help me. Amen.
