bencybenny97
Disciple of Prayer
i am going through sooo much right now. during the end of sophomore year i found out that i am rank number 76 out of 593 and that made me so disappointed in myself because all my friends were in the top ten percent and everything. i didnt want to tell my parents about this because they are going to be soo upset plus the rank you get your junior year is the one that counts. i decided to take 5 AP classes so that i can move up but now i am struggling soooo bad. i been staying up all night studying to the point where i feel like fainting and throwing up when i go to school. it's my dads dream to see me as a doctor, but i don't think i can fulfill his dream because i am not smart like he thinks he is. he has sooo much expectations for me since my sister got a full scholarship and she is now going to pharmacy school. everyday i find myself asking god why he couldn't bless my parents with a smart child. i got chosen to write an essay for the NHS (national honor society) , but i dont think i'm going to get in because there are many students who are super smart and talented and i am not one of them. please pray to god that i get in the NHS and top ten percent. it would be so great if you guys can take one minute from you day to pray for me.
