It is a right and holy desire to seek a companion in the Lord, for marriage is His own institution and not a less sacred thing than the single life consecrated to Christ. But remember, such a thing God appoints, and it is not for you to wish the appointment different. Shall the Divine Providence be put under your supervision? No, for the child of God says with Job, "What? Shall we receive good at the hand of the Lord, and shall we not receive evil?" And even more, though He slay me, yet will I trust in Him. You must fear Him too much to have one hard thought of Him or to utter one mistrustful word about His timing.
You ask for miracles, and well you may, for the first miracle Christ worked was at a marriage. He turned water into wine, showing that He can bring joy and provision where there is emptiness. But the objective of that miracle was to reveal His power and authority, not merely to satisfy a want. So, too, in your life, His power to save and to order all things does not depend upon anything in you; it lies wholly in Jesus Himself. He can make a way where no path seems open. Only be sure that you do not set conditions for the Almighty. Abraham, in a moment of fear, called his wife his sister; that was a sin under surprise, but God forgave him. So if you have stumbled, look to grace, for a true faith perseveres, not because we hold fast, but because He holds us fast.
Consider the grand promise: "I give unto them eternal life," and they shall never perish. If He has given you life in Christ, He will also give every needed earthly blessing in its time. The marriage between our souls and Christ can never be dissolved, and the earthly picture of that union must be waited for with holy patience. God never plays fast and loose with His mercy; His gifts and calling are without repentance. So pray with love, with importunity like the woman of Canaan, who would not let the Saviour go until He blessed her. Your extremity will be His opportunity. But let your prayer be, not merely for a wife, but that you may be made a husband who fears the Lord, for that is the chief thing.
The covenant is divine in its maintenance. God says, "I will make an everlasting covenant with them." He does not say, "They shall make a covenant with me." O soul, rest in that. If He has chosen you, He will confirm you to the end. Perseverance is not the removal of temptation but the sustaining grace that keeps you in holiness. The Christian life threads its way between death-bearing shafts, preserved only by a constant miracle. So, too, will your desire be answered in God's time, if it be for your good and His glory. The husband who praises his wife gives thanks to God; but the praise of Christ over a faithful heart is far sweeter. Look to Him first, and trust that He who provided a bride for Adam in his deep sleep will, in your waking hours, bring you one who has real interest and will not give up, because God's appointment stands sure. We pray with you, that God may bless you, and that you may see His miracles of grace.