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Please pray for me. My name is ###. I am ### years old. I have big problems with Jealousy (a very bad case) and not trusting my fiance. I am unsure where the problem lies. The jealousy seems to control my life, other girls looking better than me, in public and on t.v. My jealousy is embarrassing. I always think my fiance is staring at other girls in a sexual way, I have always thought my boyfriends did that. I want to escape these feelings, this torment so bad. But I don't know how. I have tried for years.
Jealousy ruined a previous marriage. It is so bad that I don't want my fiance to go anywhere there are pretty girls without me, it is so bad that I want to not go in public with him because I don't want to see him look at other women.
I know he is not like that, yet the jealousy takes over. The jealousy affects all my decisions, I won't even go bowling or go to the movies with him because I am afraid to see other women who I think have great qualities and want them. It goes even deeper than that, Jealousy is violent. I can't deal with it. The only arguments me and my fiance have is over JEALOUSY! It is uncomfortable. It is bad. It is killing me! It is destroying my fiance..God help! I have been through a lot in my life. I come from a non-Christian home.
I am a born again believer yet still have doubts. I really need a lot of prayer. I want to trust and believe God 100% that if the word says it, then it is true! I want to believe that God's promises are for me. It's like I can't make myself believe anything. And I always forget God's love for me. I always forget all the good things he does for me. I am a mess. I am unhappy, not thankful as I want to be, not as loving as I want to be, not as caring as I want to be, not as obedient as I want to be. I live in shame and guilt and pity because of my imperfections and falling short of what a Christian is supposed to be. I live in guilt and condemnation about my past. I believe everything everyone says about me and question myself. I seem to have lost all my identity and seem to not realize the loving person that I am on the inside. I am confused a lot about what is going on around me. I am confused about what is the truth about things. I am confused and stressed about why is there all these bad things happening to me and why is there so much evil in this world. I wish to see the hand behind all the blessings in my life so that I know that it is him and that I can thank him personally. I pray all the time. I read my Bible. I read books about God. Yet, I am still not at peace. I don't have much joy. I think about my problems a lot. I really want out of this thinking mess that I am in and I cannot do it myself. I need to surrender my all to God and let him take complete control I guess. I need lots of prayer because I don't know what to do. I don't know where I am in my relationship with God. I need to believe God loves me. I need to believe my fiance loves me. I need to trust God. I need to trust my fiance. My whole life is a mess. I really need God to overtake me, pour his love on me and take me over! I can't take this anymore. This is not living! This is not loving!! I need everything God has to offer!
Jealousy ruined a previous marriage. It is so bad that I don't want my fiance to go anywhere there are pretty girls without me, it is so bad that I want to not go in public with him because I don't want to see him look at other women.
I know he is not like that, yet the jealousy takes over. The jealousy affects all my decisions, I won't even go bowling or go to the movies with him because I am afraid to see other women who I think have great qualities and want them. It goes even deeper than that, Jealousy is violent. I can't deal with it. The only arguments me and my fiance have is over JEALOUSY! It is uncomfortable. It is bad. It is killing me! It is destroying my fiance..God help! I have been through a lot in my life. I come from a non-Christian home.
I am a born again believer yet still have doubts. I really need a lot of prayer. I want to trust and believe God 100% that if the word says it, then it is true! I want to believe that God's promises are for me. It's like I can't make myself believe anything. And I always forget God's love for me. I always forget all the good things he does for me. I am a mess. I am unhappy, not thankful as I want to be, not as loving as I want to be, not as caring as I want to be, not as obedient as I want to be. I live in shame and guilt and pity because of my imperfections and falling short of what a Christian is supposed to be. I live in guilt and condemnation about my past. I believe everything everyone says about me and question myself. I seem to have lost all my identity and seem to not realize the loving person that I am on the inside. I am confused a lot about what is going on around me. I am confused about what is the truth about things. I am confused and stressed about why is there all these bad things happening to me and why is there so much evil in this world. I wish to see the hand behind all the blessings in my life so that I know that it is him and that I can thank him personally. I pray all the time. I read my Bible. I read books about God. Yet, I am still not at peace. I don't have much joy. I think about my problems a lot. I really want out of this thinking mess that I am in and I cannot do it myself. I need to surrender my all to God and let him take complete control I guess. I need lots of prayer because I don't know what to do. I don't know where I am in my relationship with God. I need to believe God loves me. I need to believe my fiance loves me. I need to trust God. I need to trust my fiance. My whole life is a mess. I really need God to overtake me, pour his love on me and take me over! I can't take this anymore. This is not living! This is not loving!! I need everything God has to offer!

