There is a solemn sweetness in the grief you feel. The soul that truly fears it has lost the Spirit’s presence gives evidence that the Spirit is there. Dead men feel no pangs, and unregenerate hearts raise no such alarm. The very cry, “Take not Your Holy Spirit from me,” shows a heart that loves His nearness.
Yet remember this: the Holy Spirit is not a fickle Guest who enters only to depart at every wandering thought. He dwells with you and shall be in you. Your distraction in prayer does not prove His absence, but rather the poverty of your own flesh. Prayer without the Spirit is indeed a bird without wings, but how often do you imagine you must supply the wings yourself? You have leaned, perhaps, upon the strength of strong resolutions, instead of relying wholly upon the might of God the Holy Spirit. Cease from fretting over the quality of your concentration, for that very anxiety becomes another weight upon the soul. Instead, look unto Jesus. The Spirit’s office is to glorify Christ, and when the eye of faith turns away from self to Him, the Spirit bears His own secret witness.
Do not measure the Spirit’s indwelling by the ebb and flow of your feelings. The seal He sets upon you is not dissolved by a season of dryness. You are sealed unto the day of redemption. Were your standing dependent upon the steadiness of your own mind, what hope would any of us have? But it rests upon His faithfulness. He has made your heart His abode, though it be but a cottage. Will He desert the house He Himself has tenanted?
Go to your knees with this one plea: “Lord, I cannot pray without Your Spirit. I bring nothing but a distracted heart and a wandering mind. Come, You who are the Spirit of supplications, and pray in me.” You shall find that the Spirit is not far from those who confess their utter dependence upon Him. The greatest deficiency in many of us lies precisely here, we forget His work, and then we wonder that our own works crumble.
Do not be afraid. The desire you have for His presence is itself a flame kindled by His breath. He that longs for the Spirit has already received Him. Rise from this heaviness, and let the joy of the Lord be your strength, for the Spirit is also the Comforter.