plz..i am in need of prayers im so scared right now.lord plz help me

[Guest]

im scared to death..i don not know what to do or who to turn to enymore...noone knows the pain that i am going through right now.i try my best to be the normal happy me at home but fear and depperisson always wins the fight.....

it has been 47(1 month and few days) days since i got involved in a possible HIV exposure..and life for me hasnt been the same..i caught an sti from my exgirlfriend got treated for it ..i thought it had been cured but i dont think so enymore cause i am now starting to feel these burning penile sensations that were gone..

days after while i was googling about HIV i notice that i might have been going throgh the primary acute HIV infection.because i was experincing all the symptoms which were mentioned..so i decided to go for an hiv test (3weeks and 3days afer).And thank god it returned negative..i was so excited...THANK U MY LORD!!!!but the doc said i had to come bk in 3month to do another test becuse theres stil a posibilty that i might be hiv positive..i letf the hospital so happy and overwhelmed that day i really though evry thing was ok dispite my symptoms..but for the pass few days theses symptoms have worsened and i mean realy,,i ve had a sore throat for three weeks a a few days and now i have some visible sore like blisters to the back of upper part of my throat..so much pain.my mouth feel dry all the time i dont know wats going on with me..i still have the glands in my arm pits they havent gotten any smaller.dont know what i am gonna do...

i realy need prayers at this moment ..i dont want to be HIV positive because this will destraoy all my futrue goals and plans i realy wanted to become and emergency medical technion(currently studing).and the worst part of being HIV positive is knowing that i will bring shame to my family who are expecting better from me...my mom is realy counting on me to be a successfull young man (IM ONLY 18YRS OLD)to help her and the rest our family cause we are not that much fortunate.LORD PLEASE HELP ME ..HEAL ME LORD...I NO THAT WITH YOU ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE....

i never knew a mistake could have been so dangerous..lord i am very sorry for the sins i have commited and i am askin for your forgivness and that you give me the faith and strengh to move on to persue my future goals..

and god i pray that my exgirl freind is not hiv positive..lord let her have a normal long life becus she is still young and let her see the way is through you.duide her ,heal herlord and preseve her... but i ask my her if she had have unprotected sex with anyone else b4 me and she said NO..so why did i caught an STD from her when she is the only girl i have had sex with..lord i need to to come in to my life right now..i feel so used and this burden feels like its to much for me..my god i know that you are there with me and u will always be..please god let my secoung hiv test results be negative if it is your will ..lord have yours way with me ..

IN GREAT NEED OF PRAYERS RIGHT NOW

 

[K-J]

God, I pray for Your peace in this troubled life. We all make mistakes, Father, some greater than others, but I know that You have purpose in all we go through. I pray for Your deep and tangible presence with this guest. I pray he will first forgive himself, then come in complete repentance and submission to the foot of Your throne. He is correct in stating that You are the only way through this situation, and life. I pray that You will bless him with a chance to straighten his life out and follow You and You alone. Please be with him and provide for his needs. I trust in Your faithfulness, I know You are not a God of revenge or malice. Bring this guest to a place of peace, rest and hope. In Jesus' name, thank You that he has come to You for help. Keep him firmly rooted in Your path. Amen.