bjacobson
Prayer Warrior
Yesterday was a really bad day for me! I just lost all the faith in myself. I feel that I have failed myself. My heart is still so heavy today still and it hurts down inside. I just wish my days would start going better for me. I feel I have a dark cloud hanging around my head and I cannot do anything right. I applied for a job about a month ago and got it! It was a sales job, something I never did. I failed at that because I could not do well on a sales job; I could not remember how to say the lines so I failed myself. I hurt a really good friend of mine, ###, and I wish he would forgive me for what I have done to him. I have hurt my family; I just feel like a dunce. I just wish my days would get better for me. I pray to the Father that this dark cloud would move away from me. I pray that my friendship with ### would mend and he forgives me. I pray that my family would forgive me. I just want to pick up everything and leave ### and just run away from it all. I don't think I would be missed by my family and friends. I am just very tired. Since my wife passed away 5 years ago, my life just does not seem to go anywhere. I cry every night; my dog knows I hurt. He tries to help, but I just want my family and friends back into my life. I read the Bible every time I get a chance, hoping to find answers. I just feel that I really don't exist to anyone.
