We have heard your cry and we are lifting you and your friend up together before the throne of grace in Jesus name. We thank God that you have not lost your faith and that you do believe in Jesus, for it is only through Him that we have access to the Father and hope that does not disappoint. We hear the deep heaviness and exhaustion in your words, that you both feel at your breaking point, unable to even open the Bible, feeling numb and hopeless and wishing the Lord would take your life. We want you to know that God sees you in this pit and He is not distant or disappointed with you in your weakness.
The Lord tells us in Psalm 34:18 Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit. And in Psalm 61:2 When my heart is overwhelmed, lead me to the rock that is higher than I. What you are feeling is real, and God does not condemn you for feeling overwhelmed. He knows your frame and He understands that the heaviness is too much for you to carry alone. That is why He says in 1 Peter 5:7 casting all your worries on him, because he cares for you.
We gently rebuke the lies that have settled over both of you, the lie that nothing will ever change and that your lives have so little hope left, and the lie that death would be better than life. Those thoughts are not from the Lord. The enemy is a liar and he wants you to believe your pit has no way out, but we rebuke that spirit of despair and hopelessness in Jesus name. Your life is precious to God and He has thoughts of peace and not of evil toward you, to give you hope and a future as He promises in Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says Yahweh, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future. The desire to numb yourself or to have your life taken is not His will for you. He wants to be your refuge and your strength, not the numbness this world offers.
You are right that this is a spiritual attack, for Ephesians 6:12 our wrestling is not against flesh and blood, but against the principalities, against the powers, against the world's rulers of the darkness of this age, and against the spiritual forces of wickedness in the heavenly places. Yet we are not called to fight in our own strength when we have none left. The Lord says in Isaiah 41:10 Don't you be afraid, for I am with you. Don't be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you. Yes, I will help you. Yes, I will uphold you with the right hand of my righteousness. And in 2 Corinthians 12:9 My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. When you feel too weak to fight, that is where His power can rest upon you. James 4:7 tells us to submit ourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. Resisting in this season may simply look like whispering the name of Jesus when you have no other words.
We also hear your struggle to read the Bible every day and the guilt you feel over it. Please hear that God is not keeping a record of your performance to love you less. His loving kindnesses do not fail, they are new every morning, great is His faithfulness as we read in Lamentations 3:22-23. When motivation is gone and heaviness makes even one verse feel heavy, we encourage you to give yourselves grace. Even a single verse, a single honest prayer like Help me, Jesus, is heard. If you can, try to read one Psalm aloud together or listen to it, perhaps Psalm 40:2 He brought me up also out of a horrible pit, out of the miry clay. He set my feet on a rock, and gave me a firm place to stand. Let the Word come to you in small sips. Put on worship music, pray short honest prayers, and do not isolate. We urge you both to reach out to a trusted pastor, a mature believer, a biblical counselor, or a safe person today and tell them how close to the breaking point you feel, and if the thoughts of dying grow stronger, please reach out right away for help to someone near you or a crisis helpline in your area. You do not have to climb out of this pit alone.
We want to remind you that our feelings do not define the truth. Psalm 42:11 says Why are you in despair, my soul? Why are you disturbed within me? Hope in God! For I shall still praise him, the saving help of my countenance, and my God. Hope in God is not hope that circumstances will instantly become easy, but hope that He is with you, He is working even when you cannot see it, and He will not waste this pain. Romans 8:28 We know that all things work together for good for those who love God, for those who are called according to his purpose.
So we pray together now.
Father, in the name of Jesus Christ we lift up this dear one and their beloved friend to You. You see their broken hearts, their exhaustion, their heaviness, and the pit they feel trapped in. Lord, we ask for divine intervention, for Your hand to lift them out of the miry clay and set their feet on the Rock. Pour out Your strength where there is no strength left, Your hope where hope feels gone, and Your peace which surpasses all understanding to guard their hearts and thoughts in Christ Jesus according to Philippians 4:6-7. Rebuke the enemy's lies and the spirit of heaviness, and let Your light shine into their darkness. Give them a hunger for Your Word again in small, gentle ways and surround them with people who will walk with them, pray with them, and remind them they are loved. Protect their lives, Lord, for their lives belong to You and You have purpose for them still. Renew their minds to believe that with You, things can change, for with You nothing is impossible. We cast all their cares on You because You care for them. Keep them in Your perfect care and let them feel Your nearness today. We ask this in the mighty and merciful name of Jesus, our only hope and Savior, amen.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. God bless me to prosper, walk in excellent health, and never stop growing in the love, grace, wisdom, and knowledge of Christ Jesus. God bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, mind, soul, body, and strength and never fall out of love with You. God, bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, Your righteousness, and to always respect and obey You. Bless me to know You, the way You want me to know You. So that I will trust You with my life and anyway that You move in my life. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, lean not to my own understanding, acknowledge You in all my ways, and allow You to direct my footsteps and actions. Bless me with knowledge, wisdom, and understanding in all You have called me to do. 
