My friend ### does not fully grasp what I am going through...
Either that or he is scared or it's a combination of both....
Though he thought he wanted to help me, I am running out of time...
Tonight he got mad at me because the landlord's and real estate agent's I called did not want to rent to me or help because I am on a Rent Subsidy with the Federal Government and people these days do not want to deal with any government agencies...at all...
He can't handle my situation, I believe, because he went through his own bad experience with a girl, but to quote ###..."""It was my own fault""" ### always said..."I knew better"... and he did from all the conversations we have had...
### often says I am the girl his mother prayed that he would always meet...
But he is losing me because I have no choice... ### is leaving me no choice anymore...
His indecisiveness and his lack of action to do even one serious and constructive thing to help me has now come down to this
He has to forfeit the girl he believes would be his future wife...
I see no other way...
Again, whether it is fear or immaturity or ignorance or selfishness or perhaps all of the above, I can't wait on ### any more...
Though I believe we would have been very good for each other, I have asked ### a few times now
say goodbye to me...just get it over with...
If ### can't step up to the plate Like Boaz did for Ruth and Joseph did for Mary, I need to stay right here in ### and we need to go our separate ways...
I am not well enough or ready to get married, but I would make the time to get to know ### and for him get to know me too...
However, if I am going to be homeless, I am better off all by myself... right here in ###...
thank-you for your prayers so much
Daddy--God, hear what I have just said and do what You know is best for us both... Please either get through to ### the seriousness of my whole living situation or please let him just go away... and forget about me... I ask this now in faith in Jesus's name
Amen......
Either that or he is scared or it's a combination of both....
Though he thought he wanted to help me, I am running out of time...
Tonight he got mad at me because the landlord's and real estate agent's I called did not want to rent to me or help because I am on a Rent Subsidy with the Federal Government and people these days do not want to deal with any government agencies...at all...
He can't handle my situation, I believe, because he went through his own bad experience with a girl, but to quote ###..."""It was my own fault""" ### always said..."I knew better"... and he did from all the conversations we have had...
### often says I am the girl his mother prayed that he would always meet...
But he is losing me because I have no choice... ### is leaving me no choice anymore...
His indecisiveness and his lack of action to do even one serious and constructive thing to help me has now come down to this
He has to forfeit the girl he believes would be his future wife...
I see no other way...
Again, whether it is fear or immaturity or ignorance or selfishness or perhaps all of the above, I can't wait on ### any more...
Though I believe we would have been very good for each other, I have asked ### a few times now
say goodbye to me...just get it over with...
If ### can't step up to the plate Like Boaz did for Ruth and Joseph did for Mary, I need to stay right here in ### and we need to go our separate ways...
I am not well enough or ready to get married, but I would make the time to get to know ### and for him get to know me too...
However, if I am going to be homeless, I am better off all by myself... right here in ###...
thank-you for your prayers so much
Daddy--God, hear what I have just said and do what You know is best for us both... Please either get through to ### the seriousness of my whole living situation or please let him just go away... and forget about me... I ask this now in faith in Jesus's name
Amen......
