jess4
Prayer Warrior
PLEASE PRAY FOR ME, I AM GETTING INTRUSIVE THOUGHTS THINKING IM BEING ANALYZED BY DIFFERENT PEOPLE AND IM NOT SURE IF ITS REAL OR NOT, I GET A BAD THOUGHT AND IT SHOWS ON MY FACE AND I HAVE NO PRIVACY AND I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO IM TRYING TO BE FREE OF THE BONDAGE I FEEL SO ISOLATED, HAVE BEEN PRAYING BUT I HAVE A CHEMICAL IMBALANCE I TRIED TO GO TO THE HOSPITAL SEVERAL TIMES BUT THEY TURNED ME AWAY BECAUSE THEY DIDNT HAVE ENOUGH BEDS I WANT TO DIE SO BAD BECAUSE ITS AMOST IMPOSSIBLE TO LIVE LIKE THIS, I JUST WANT TO BE FREE TO LIVE FOR GOD AND I DONT KNOW IF IM A BLESSING OR A CURSE I FEEL SO CURSED, IM AFRAID TO GO TO CHURCH BECAUSE PEOPLE JUDGE ME SO MUCH AND IM SO SELF CONSCIOUS, IVE BEEN HOMELESS OFF AND ON FOR ### YEARS WITH SOCIAL ANXIETY AND I FEEL SO BAD ABOUT MYSELF ITS HARD TO WALK DOWN THE STREET, PEOPLE ARE MEAN CUZ THEY DONT UNDERSTAND AND I KEEP READING THE BIBLE PRAYING FOR PEACE I FEEL SO OPPRESSED LIKE PEOPLE IN POWER CAN READ MY THOUGHTS AND ITS HAPPENED BEFORE, IT FEELS LIKE MIND CONTROL I JUST WANT TO LIVE A PEACEFUL LIFE I DONT KNOW WHY I DONT HAVE PEACE, MAYBE ITS GODS WILL BUT I FEEL SO ASHAMED OF WHO I AM RIGHT NOW, MY BIGGEST PROBLEM IS MY MIND, I CANT THINK CLEARLY ENOUGH TO DO WHAT I HAVE TO TO GET OUT OF IT, I JUST WANT TO SEE JESUS, ITS BEEN SOOO LONG, I WANT TO BE NEAR GOD, I FEEL SEPARATED FROM HIM LIKE HES PUNISHING ME FOR HAVING OBSESSIVE THOUGHTS AND I JUST WANT TO BE AROUND PEOPLE WHO DONT JUDGE, AND BE FREE, PLEASE PRAY I WONT BE NOTICED ANYMORE, I JUST WANT TO BE INVISIBLE SO I WONT BE ABUSED BY PEOPLE IN JESUS NAME AMEN
