Thank you so much for the reply! Thank you for the recommended verses and I plan on studying them, memorizing them, and reading them. It's so frustrating and difficult dealing with these mental demons between my PTSD, Depression, and Insomnia, and there are some days in which I feel as though "what's the point?", "Noone is going to understand me", "I'm always going to be alone". The most difficult aspect of my traumatic event is the fact that A) The night the accident occured, I wasn't supposed to work that night. The co-worker I decided to cover that night, tried to get me fired the 1st week I started working there, and I heard that she needed a day off to spend time with her daughter. I always read scripture and I recall reading the bible the night she tried to intentionally get me fired, and remember reading the "turn the over check and pray for our ememies", and I ended up working the shift for her and being kind towards her instead. B) I was hospitalized for a week as a result of the accident, and I recall literrally everything about that day up until I stopped at that red light by my father's house (I remember what I said to everyone that day, what I ate for Breakfast and lunch, the song I was listening to on the radio, the weather, everthing). The accident left me with scars all over my arms and chest, brain damage that left me with a seizure condition, PTSD, Depression (I feel hopeless, and sad also because a friend of mine died in a car crash before I moved to this new state and I couldnt attend his funeral..I feel extremely helpless), Insomia (Like 8 times out of 10 .... when I finally fall asleep I have an intense nightmare about the accident).
I'm sorry again for the long reply but I promise to read those verses and to try my best to stay connected to God's word. I feel Blessed to still be alive, and I feel Blessed to have a few people in my life showing me support and people on here showing support as well. TY so much and I hope you have a Blessed day