Carol825
Servant of All
I feel as if He is testing me every minute, building my stress and not helping me when I ask him for relief. Just to help with my depression and worry. I tried "handing it over" to him and it helped with the depression for a day or two, and I asked for this particular job and I thought I had it. It was offered to me, but then I had to (jump through hoops) go through training and took 10 tests and the tests were returned to me with so many mistakes. I could understand some of them, but others made no sense. I just cried and cried. Why is he trying to break me? My brain is fried. I'm trying to find a job. That's all I do all day is job hunt, put in applications, send resumes and pray like a crazy person and I feel it's not helping at all. It's like he told the devil, "have your way with her, test her, punish her, make her crazy." I am petrified in fear and depression and cannot find the light. There is no light at the end of my tunnel. Can anyone tell me how to build my faith? I don't feel I can trust him. I don't feel I can "let go and let God" again, because he continues to let me down. I am about to give up on him completely.
